March 18 2016

Greetings My Friend, With Parkinson's Disease I find that my body quits working in the most uncomfortable ways. Most recently it has been having a regular BM which is not something I generally talk about but things have gotten real bad. I have found myself doing what I usually do eating my fruits and vegetables with no movement. I went to my on line PD support group and asked how to get through the problem. I learned a lot and I was still struggling so I took my problem to God. Now I was embarrassed to ask for help about such a personal problem although I was desperate enough so I asked for help. My PCP gave me a prescription for Miralax which was not working so as I said I asked God and He gave me the idea to use Actvia Yogurt and bananas along with ex lax. This has been helping me a whole lot. Eating yogurt and a banana is replacing my bedtime snack of homemade cookies. Asking God means I need to trust and obey and right now that means giving up the last hold out on sugar the cookies. To be honest I thought about having my cookies until a little voice inside of me reminded me that I was the one who asked for help. It seems the struggle was a stronghold in my life, even though in my mind it was a minor stronghold, it was a stronghold none the less. Did I want to feel better or did I want my cookies? I was miserable enough that I chose to feel better. For the next several nights I repeated the same procedure as the first night, one night I did not need a laxative and another night I did not need the banana which meant I could have my cookies. About the time I think I have given over all of my strongholds I discover that I have not. Everything has been working smoothly for a little while now and frankly I am grateful that it is. I am thankful that I am learning to give up more sugar in my life even though in my heart I still crave it. It came to me that when my gallbladder went bad on me I got to the point of anything with tomatoes was not worth eating even though I loved tomatoes. My favorite homemade soup was cabbage soup with V8 juice and since my gallbladder has been out I can't eat it. There is always that point where if something I eat makes me miserable I give it up. Oatmeal cookies do not make me miserable but my problem does so if I need to give up my favorite cookies I will work at not eating them. I also find that my weight has gone done another pound or two, I do like that too. I admit that I am still sucking on 3 lemon drops at night. The sour candy helps keep my dry mouth moist. I felt before all of this this problem I had worked through all of my strongholds, my sugar addiction has shown me that I have not and when I think that I have in the future I need to remind myself that I more than likely have not worked through all my strongholds. May God bless you and keep you make His face shine on you. Love Janet