August 1 2015

August 1 2015 Greetings My Friend The dogs are fully fenced in now. I missed them snoozing on the porch as I went out to eat my breakfast. I am grateful at the same time to have them enclosed on our property. Mindy has been gone for over a week and at this point I don’t think she is coming back. I miss her so much and with them closed in my thought is no one can stop and take them or even a coyote attack them. They still have the doggie door to come and go through but now it only lets them out in the fenced part of the yard. I still let Daisy out the front door since she is blind I know she won’t wander too far. I also take her with me out on the porch and I find a peace with her at my side as I eat and watch the birds. Yesterday it came to me to clean up around the cat’s area more. Slowly we are working at my allergy triggers and this was an area I have been lax on. Mainly they aren’t around me so out of sight out of mind. Junior is taking up the area rug today and as I keep getting my energy back I am once more sweeping the floors regularly again. With all of our attempting to keep the fur and dander down to a minimum I think that I will struggle with seasonal allergies, dust and mold so at this point I am not ready to let the animals go. They are our fur family and we’d be lost without them so I/we work at cleaning up after them. I have struggled for several weeks with heat and humidity I sense that I am moving past the exhaustion and deep congestion. Part of it is the efforts we have been putting in and I wonder if I am not building myself to a higher tolerance of the heat and humidity. I am only going out early in the morning or later in the evening when the pollen, the heat is less. I think it helps too. I still get tired but not like I was. My chiari also lends itself to brain fog or it could be all the sleeping has brought it on. This has been a battle too trying to think, be silly and be my usual “Janet” self. I learn again that either extreme of summer or winter is rough to deal with anymore. I still prefer summer’s beauty of color though. Being stuck inside and seeing the hummingbirds, the colorful array of flowers and the green that abounds is so much more appealing than winter’s white or muted colors. I have known a few people who have had a major struggle with asthma and today I have a deep respect for their struggle since I have known it more so respect. I think I have struggled with allergies and even with asthma on and off for a good portion of my life and did not know it. My reviews of late have shown me that my complaints had fallen on deaf ears and I learned to dismiss my struggle, I coped and told myself it was nothing for so long. I am thankful for Junior because he seems to “hear” and then we both go to work at my problem and he lets me enter into helping him with his struggles too. Junior prefers to deal quietly with his problems so I help him when I don’t over mother him. He also appreciates that I am learning to deal with his very slow way of getting things done. Part of my learning is understanding more fully the struggle to work through health issues. May God bless you and keep you make His face to shine upon you. Love Janet