May 14 2015

May 14 2015 Greetings My Friend All the furniture is moved out of the sitting room, the rug is up and it was time to enter into my cleaning routines when I discovered….they were not going to happen. A few years ago I would have sat down in my chair and been so confused the rest of the day. Right now Junior is taking a timeout to wash a fur child. This means it will be a while before he finishes up his project and since he will clean the floors and the area rug the sweeping part of my day will not happen. I swept the porch as much as I was able came back in and decided now is a good time to write then I will make cheese soup for lunch and the next little while has an agenda. In the next hour or so he will go to the Chiropractor, stop by B’s house to see how she is doing on cleaning her hoarding out before he comes home again. The sitting room may or may not be put back together and again today. More than likely this arrangement will be like this for a good week. I wander out the front door and I am greeted by furniture from inside, tools for the porch extension he is working on and the aisles fill to the point I will have to hold something for each step I attempt on the porch. “Junior could you keep the aisle ways cleared of stuff?” I ask and he is so agreeable to my request. Sometime later I go outside and my idea of a clear pathway and his seems to collide. A short while ago I would smolder, stew and pray. “Lord, I want to love this man and right now it is so hard. Please open my eyes and heart to him.” One friend needs to come by to wash clothes and such. Another friend needs a ride into town for a few groceries. One of the fur children needs some fussing with and Junior stops to give the child some attention. “Yes Lord I love him and I will figure a way to cope. Thank you” My patience is tried again and God shows me other ways to bend and stretch, to make order out of disorder and to clean some corners I have been meaning to get to. As I sit down for the night I see I have a good 2 hours of moving, bending, squatting and stretching. With this I also see pretty clean areas that had been neglected for too long. I love this man all the more. I decide I want to hang out side so another day I begin bringing order to the porch. In the order I get to do some decorating with plants. I made a bench using 2 cinder blocks and a wide plank of wood and in half an hour I have the ramp cleared of debris, clutter. I am able to walk with confidence. I have even captured more of our renovating on the camera. I am sure one day we will look back with fondness and marvel how we did all the work we’ve done. Somewhere deep inside of me I know that learning how to navigate around this chaos has more than likely helped me stay stronger and more agile. My work load is more ordered most days and weeks. These binges make me stay flexible and I can roll with life’s ups and downs a bit better. In the end I am thankful. Getting to this point though is a lot of work. May God bless you and keep you make His face shine on you. Love Janet