May 16 2015

May 16 2015 Greetings My Friend Sometimes as I read the Bible I feel it speaks volumes to me. When I go through the laws, the offerings of the tabernacle and each gift is repeated 12 times I struggle to stay focused. I had gotten to the point of passing over the repeated passages after reading the first one. This year I am listening as I read and I still struggle but I keep coming back to read what is spoken. It is a lesson for me to stay focused, to come back when I wander in my mind and in my spirit. Staying focused on the journey is the goal and the more I am focused the more my life changes. I enter into the work God wants me to do and quit trying to tell God what I’d like to do. I tune into my true passions understanding that God has placed them on my heart. The more I learn the gifts God has given me the more I want to go further in my field of work God has given me. There is joy in learning to focus my heart on God moment by moment. It is hard work too. I think of runners again. I sense they compete with themselves more so. Their goal is to do better with each event than they did in the last event. In focusing on themselves they see their timing being shaved off and a quicker race is run. This is true in my faith journey also. It starts out with asking Jesus into my heart. One day I find that those thoughts that held me captive are going away. I don’t want to gossip, even swearing begins to come less frequently. Step by step I have a desire to please God more and myself less. One day I turn around and I realize the huge changes within me. At some point I realize that I am not what I once was and I am not where I will be in the future. I can’t imagine that I could still change that much but deep inside me I know I will. I look forward to these new changes. As I face new hurdles I also know that I am not alone and God is going to take me through the hurdle instead of taking the hurdle from me. Lately I learn to live with a body that has limitations. After a period of mourning I sense God teaching me to live with the disabilities. The more creative I get the more I find life to be good, great even. I still need to do self checks to stay on top of the new changes I need to make. Staying on top of all my nausea means I’ve told my doctor and we are able to get to things quicker which means my major discomfort tends to go away or is at a tolerable level. As my abilities change I am mourning less and moving into the next stage a bit easier. It is not going to go away. Sometimes God points me to things that will help me stay active, feel better and last longer before the next stage enters my life. At first I was into exercise and it did help. Junior introduced me to supplements, they too are helping me. Next I learned about essential oils and this is helping me as well. I relearned to exercise within my capabilities instead of staying rigid with my old routines Yes I have limitations today but I am redefining my abilities and loving each and every day I am given by God. In the process I am looking at life with a new set of eyes and I am enjoying life from this arena. May God bless you and keep you make His face shine on you. Love Janet