March 7, 2009

Proverbs 20:19
As water reflects a face, so a man’s heart reflects the man.

Proverbs 14:3
A heart at peace gives life to the body but envy rots the bones.

Greetings My Friend,

One of the things I love about Junior is that he is steadfast, he does not change, and he is who he is. I feel so safe with him, because there is no hidden agenda in him. When we were dating I loved to tell him that I was looking for boring. I was so ready to leave a roller coaster life behind.
I love listening to Junior move around the house. I usually hear his movements as I wake up in the mornings. He will empty the dishwasher, talk to one of the cats or I hear him in the bathroom shaving, brushing his teeth. It is a sweet sound to my ears.

In my other life we tried to get up and get out of the house in a hurry before “he” got up and around. He liked to wake up cranky. He liked to make all of us miserable because he didn’t like mornings. It wasn’t like we could be quiet until he woke up and then he would be friendly. He had to hurt someone’s feelings in the process of waking up. It was no fun being around him in the mornings.

In my new life, I love the quietness of it all. I used to hate quiet. I was not comfortable with quiet. Quiet scared me. Quiet often meant there was a lot of anger and soon there would be a huge blow up. With Junior though, quiet is peaceful and its okay.
Quietness now is often time I spend alone with the Lord. Quietness is time to contemplate life. I relish the quiet life we live. With Junior, I am not afraid. With Junior I can talk to him when life is uncertain. He lets me repeat myself. I need to repeat things. It helps me put life in perspective.
Junior and I live a very quiet life. I love it. We don’t need to be loud. We don’t need to be angry. We just enjoy life. When we do have struggles, we tend to go to prayer. In prayer I have found many answers. God sometimes points out how to react to Junior. I am learning that he sees life from another angle from me. God is teaching me to accept our differences. He is teaching me to love Junior for who he is.

The best thing is that I can accept Junior’s differences. Junior is not me. He is Junior and I have come to love him, even when his differences are foreign to me. For a time, Junior liked to talk in our Sunday School Class. He could be rather blatant about his opinions. I hate to make a scene. God has taught me to accept Junior, even when he has an opinion and wants to share it.

Because Junior is in love with Jesus, I wind up feeling safe. Because Junior listens to God in prayer and Bible Study, he reflects a peace that makes me feel safe. The more we keep God/Jesus at the center of our lives we find that we accept our differences and aren’t as apt to try to change each other. We tend to accept our differences as the unique person that God is creating us to be.

May God bless you and keep you, make His face to shine upon you.

Love
Janet