February 1, s018

Greetings My Friend,

With a second trip to Johnson City, 3-4 phone calls to the Apple help line and my iPad once more stalled in the set up application I begin to wonder what is going on. As a woman of faith in Jesus, I find myself asking God once more if there is unconfessed sin in my life that is keeping me from being able to use the new device I have purchased. I confessed early on because I ordered the iPad without seeking God's advice, Junior and I had agreed we need to get into a habit of seeking God's input before we purchase things then we went out and bought this device without asking God. I asked for forgiveness, I figured we always pay a price for sin even if are forgiven much like a smoker who asks God to help him walk away from the habit, the effects of smoking won't leave his body. After a second trip to JC, to retrieve the iPad and in hopes to get it set up I am once more stuck in the process of getting the device set up. My mind asks God if there is another sin that I have overlooked. I also recall praying asking God if He wanted me to return the iPad and I felt that He said "no". I find myself in deep prayer asking, questioning and requesting to understand how to find out what I am missing in all of this. From the start of working on the iPad I felt that learning something new is good for me because I am keeping my mind active with learning. Since God has given me a ministry of writing, I felt that having an iPad with a key board would be good, I then would hopefully need 2 devices my phone and the iPad and I would not have to replace my laptop since it died. I now have all 3 devices again and the iPad is not working again, still. I want nothing more than to please God, to learn some of the hard lessons I must learn so that I am able to walk closer to God. I have seen God's hand on me helping me get my health in a manageable order. I know God has helped me walk from total fear of my ex to a place where I know he can never hurt me again. I believe God is God and His convictions on my heart are for my good so I am upset that I am not able to "hear" God's voice in this latest lesson. I also know God is going to keep showing me my sin until I understand what it is and then He will teach me how to walk away from this sin but for now I am searching deep in my soul to understand where God is pointing out what my sin is. May God bless you and keep you make His face shine on you. Love Janet