Greetings My Friend,
Having a faith journey with Jesus is much like being married to Junior, while Junior was in Michigan we talked, stayed faithful to each other and believed beyond a shadow of a doubt we would come back together united. Just like in marriage I wake up each day, make the decision that I will stay committed to my belief that Jesus is my Savior. The time apart taught us lessons, Junior stayed with our niece and nephew, visited his cousin and some friends from the neighborhood he lived in for sometime as a youngster. The get together of the friends allowed Junior to remember a few good memories from a very troubled childhood and I believe he made peace with it. While Junior was gone I got to hang out with some good girl friends, I learned I can rely on these friends as we got together for some fun. Debbie and Terrie both did not mind picking me up, taking me to church and shopping, for me this is one of the rare times I have gone out without Junior since moving down here. I learned that I can handle my day to day life on my own as well, I made my meals, kept up with laundry, dishes, making the bed etc. When I 1st began my faith journey I learned that God held my hand, guiding me, allowing me to cry, gave me hugs and what not. One day I felt God taking His hand off of me, patted me on the back and gently pushed me back into life. At first I was afraid but I took that step and was surprised I could actually do it and soon I found myself confident. I was in a conversation recently with a woman who is in a bad relationship, she has lost her confidence due to being told constantly how worthless she is. I told her I knew the feeling and she asked me if I was confident, I told her I was but it was not my confidence, my confidence comes from Jesus. Thirty years ago I would not make a decision about anything, I did not think I could survive on my own etc. Today I talk to anyone without fear, I ask questions all the time in Sunday school or Bible study, at one time I never did. God put me with Junior who taught me that I am a smart woman with many valuable traits. I am a detail person, Junior is a big picture person together we are a great team. When I make a mistake Junior does not berate me which helped me to try new things. God has done the same thing with me, He keeps showing me He created me with special talents, gifts and encourages me to do what I am gifted at. He has shown me where pride was detracting from the gift I had and showed me how to let go of pride, to aim for the heart of my gift. I used to want to be a famous writer, speaker, today all I want is to touch a heart, show them they are capable of walking away from bad relationships, can work even with a handicap and so on. Junior's trip to Michigan gave me the opportunity to see that I still can do many things on my own and in the areas where I can't, God has given me friends to be an assist. May God bless you and keep you make His face shine on you. Love Janet
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