June 25, 2016

Greetings My Friend, The blood work has been taken, the ENT appointment has been made and I am waiting in peace. I was fretful, wanting to be looked at more fully and now I am content. The answers may be in one of the tests, the ENT appointment or it may not but we have started looking for answers. I notice the areas muscle groups that seem to tire rather easily, manage my walking better using the walker, sitting for a few hours after expending physical energy for a couple of hours doing housework,cooking and such. The wheelchair is on order waiting for my PCP to fill out the paperwork. That too is in the works. I sense God telling me to prepare for winter by putting up food and making quilts. I prepare my body by doing squats, with the hand rails Junior put on the wall and doing the exercises I learn in VT for my ears. I continue to eat healthier, I made my first peanut butter "no bakes" with honey and butter instead of frosting and I made them smaller. This year I have started checking the pollen levels daily which help me stay on top of my allergies. Father God has told me to do and now I wait for answers and preparing helps me keep my focus instead of being fretful. I am amazed how God advises, warns and then puts into action, for me and for our country. I learn to listen and in listening to God in regards to my health I see the same lesson for the world and our nation as well. He lays out what "right living is in His Word. He teaches what punishment will be dealt if we stray from Him and His Word and in the right time He will exact that punishment. I can choose to open my heart to what God is teaching me or trust in science only. God uses science to heal me, sometimes it is from His creation my healing will come and my body is responding to it. Someday's I do not use my as needed inhaler, essential oils will settle the tightness in my chest, other days I need the as needed inhaler. Sometimes God lets me know that I have a stronghold that needs to be looked at. I ponder it, find He is right and then I ask for forgiveness, at that point He begins to teach me how to walk away from it. Right now I am struggling with discussing a hurt. I am trying to learn, to walk through it so I talk to others. God is teaching me that the time has come for me to bring the hurt to Him and Him alone. I used to tell Him, tell others and in that I was able to work through the hurt, I found His answers in a friends comments. Today he wants me to leave it all with Him. This is hard but I am working on it. I am better but I have not gotten all the way there yet so I continue to ask Father God to help me and He does. In my weakness of body I find a strength I never knew I had. This strength is not of my making, it is God's teaching and loving hand guiding me. My thought is changing to the strength I have is God's strength in me. With His strength I am able to face many trials. After each trial I am amazed at how capable I am because of Him. My body will continue to decline due to it aging, maybe to the illness I have that is yet to be discovered but I trust God with the outcome. I pray our nation will walk with God again and trust His hand more than our might. As for me and my house we will serve the Lord. Love Janet