February 27 2016

February 27 2016 Greetings My Friend As I write it is the 1st day I am revamping my schedule. My therapist has suggested some of my balance issues is due to working too hard thus I am tired out and can’t keep my balance as well as when I am more rested. I have talked and thought so now it is time to implement the plan. This morning I am very tired so I am having a hard time getting up and moving. I am taking more time sitting. I changed my Bible study quiet time to the 1st thing I do in the morning. By the time I take my medications and medicate Daisy I have drank nearly a half a cup of tea ( my coffee drinking days are over with due digestive struggles.) With the caffeine in my system my brain has begun to engage. I admit I missed checking Facebook and my e-mails but recently when I went this route I was so sleepy I took a nap and some days I was putting off my study for a while. This way I am fresh and I can read and hear as I read. Because I have pushed myself with 3 days of Vestibular therapy and a busy day of going with Junior for one of his checkups and a meeting with our financial planner I am exhausted. I have worked myself up to working at least an hour at a stretch, even 2 hours. Around lunch time I am tired so I eat and then I rest for a couple of hours, mostly sleeping. For the rest of the day I am able to do short bursts of physical activity. The goal now is to work maybe 30 - 45 minutes and then sit for a good hour or even nap if I need to. If I am not sleepy I will do of my crafts. After a good rest I then hope to do some more work and stop later in the day. I know on one level that working past my level of endurance is never going to build me back to what I once was and on another I think I can. It is now time to get my head and heart operating on the same playing field. A lot of deep thinking has reminded me that I am in this condition because of attempting to burn the candle at both ends. I was great at multitasking and I even loved it but all that pushing myself has played havoc on me. I now am rethinking my way of doing things. Reality says my old ways were not as good as I always felt they were. Another sobering thought is if I keep pushing myself and I wear down even more that means Junior will continue to pick up more and more of my slack. I appreciate that he will but I also may be pushing his energy level too far too soon. If I slow down the thought is I will be able to be Junior’s helpmate for a longer period of time. I continue to learn that if I take the whole day to keep the house up that is okay. The days we run the house is in shape for when things slow down enough I am able to pick up where I left off. I see it is important to keep working at housekeeping instead of set aside a day for cleaning like in days gone by. I have learned to walk real slow, to use my walking stick and avoid doing things I can no longer handle like climbing on ladders. Now I need to implement the same thought and action to my day to day activities. I still am exercising and taking care of my body. I have come a long way from not hearing God’s direction to understanding His voice in the quiet of my spirit. As my therapist was making her suggestion I knew without a doubt the information was indeed what I needed to do. May God bless you and keep you make His face shine on you. Love Janet