September 12 2015

September 12 2015 Greetings My Friend I am ADHD. I have discovered this in my older years but as I look back I now see it is something I have had for a lifetime. I tend to blurt out any and all thoughts that pop into my mind. I fidget, wiggle and I have a strong need to move about all the time. In my younger years I was able to keep my body going and in some way I was able to squelch a few of my thoughts and keep them inside. In my older years my body is slowing down and frankly keeping my thoughts at bay is very difficult. Actually I never realized how I blurted out things until I started taking an amino acid supplement. Right away I started noticing thoughts as the popped into my head and I found times I kept the thought inside of my head. With all my gagging issues I have recently stumbled across taking my dose 2 times a day instead of one because 5 pills made me gag. I have been doing this for some time now and it is occurring to me how much calmer I feel both in my thoughts and in my body. I have made peace with my life with God’s help and I have accepted my unique ways but now I sense a calmness I have never known and it is strangely wonderful. Along with splitting the supplements up and taking them 2 times a day I have spent a whole lot of time porch sitting this summer. These 2 things seem to have taken me to another level of calm that is refreshing. We were running errands yesterday and a thought popped into my head. Right away I thought that this is not the time to have this discussion with Junior. Right after this I asked him if he noticed that I am calmer and he agreed that I am. Through the years I have learned that men are single focused where women tend to have a spider web of thoughts and somehow we tie them together. It confuses men a bunch. The thought I had was on a totally different subject than we were discussing and it came to me that changing the subject would only confuse Junior, even aggravate him so I put it aside for another time. Through the years Junior has learned to tune in to the thoughts I truly wanted his input on. I have learned to state that I want input and a few other clues I am not sure I can name. He is pretty good at letting me talk my thoughts out loud as I need to work through issues. I still confuse him at times too. With this new calmness though I am learning to wait for some discussions and it is awesome. I am able to go longer stretches of time without talking and it is comfortable. Quiet non talk times was so uncomfortable, I guess my mind never shut down I felt conversations did not either. I know the difference now. Until this time of supplemental help along with God’s direction I have found the beauty of quiet both in my mind and in my spirit. May God bless you and keep you make His face shine on you. Love Janet