August 13 2015

August 132015 Greetings My Friend We actually had a contractor stop by last night. Mostly they don’t show but this guy did. He walked through looking at what we wanted done and he was gone. I excitedly asked Junior how it went and he said “the guy did not seem interested in the least.” For 5 years we have been trying to find someone to come and look and then to take on our project and still our project is not done. I wonder “did I hear God right?” I felt God tell me “the project will get done.” As I pondered this I sensed God insert “it won’t be done in the way you think it will.” My mind asks “Do I keep looking for contractors, for mission groups to help?” I am trying to keep my wants out of this request and to lean into God’s will. It is hard for sure. A few nights this past week I have had a killer neck/headache. Thinking my way through it has been hard so I went to prayer asking God to guide me. First it came to me to use an ice pack and it quieted some. Next I used Frankincense oil and all of a sudden I woke up in my chair with a lot of relief. God is my comfort, my strength. I am attempting to keep an ongoing conversation with God about getting help for Junior for our renovating. I hear then I seem to drift off in another direction. I see Junior is getting tired and the 3 projects he most uncomfortable doing he keeps putting off which is the kitchen a master bathroom and master bedroom. God has also planted a desire to refurbish old furniture and we both are longing for the day to arrive. In my heart I know the projects will be done, we will begin our repurposing furniture days and in a way our true retirement will begin. Right now that seems forever but I also know I will be amazed at God’s answer in the end and even thankful. One of the recent lessons for me has been to quit visualizing a grand finish to the bedroom, bathroom and kitchen. At first I had to have a walk in closet. The more I thought on it, no not really. I then thought a spa bathroom would be awesome and again as I thought on it I doubt I will ever truly care if I have a large fancy bathroom. I am more content to have a tub maybe a seperate shower for Junior to roll into with a wheel chair. In the end it is more about function than size and glamor. The same with the kitchen, it needs to be functional. I don’t need fancy, I am not fancy so if I have real countertops not particle board I will be happy. I think I needed to work all of this through. Now that I have I pray my requests will line up with God’s will. As I settle on not getting a showcase home I sense things will come together more so. I heard of another online page to try and find a contractor so I will work this angle out. I will ask the missions director at church if we are eligible for missions help and in the end if the answer is no I think I can accept it. At present though I am trying to line up my desires to match with God’s desires and frankly many times my desires are more selfish. I will keep refocusing my thoughts to line up with God’s will and I know in the end I will be content. May God bless you and keep you make His face shine on you. Love Janet