March 28 2015

March 28 2015 Greetings My Friend, We were up and running early yesterday since I needed to fast and then have blood drawn. A lot of my exercising was done walking as we shopped at Lowe’s before we headed home. Once we got home we had lunch then I needed some sit time so I went to prayer. During prayers I drifted off to sleep. I used to feel guilty about this until I realized that God was good with Him talking to Him, falling asleep and most times I continue my talking when I wake up. I sense as I am snoozing I also talking to God on some level, I feel like I am in His presence even if I don’t seem to have “words”. When I finished I had energy again and began doing things around the house. One endeavor for me was to “create” a lighted space with a picture and a cat statue underneath our TV. At first we used this for a dog bed but it didn’t work like we thought it would so then we decided to use it for a night light spot for me to maneuver around the house during the night. Both Junior and I are happy with the finished product. We have a heavy metal cross in the yard and I thought it might fit inside the box. I took my walker over to the cross, lifted it to the chair and brought them in the house. I knew to support myself for this work and did. As I walked up the ramp though I found myself stumbling. I was able to not fall but I did learn that even with the aid of a walker when I am tired out I am not as stable as I usually am with a cane or such. I think I am learning to test my limits and at some point I also need to pull back. I had been active and this last endeavor was too much. I also see back into my life where I stumbled while walking and exercising….I have a point that I must pull back even though others are able to push past that point. My thought today as I enter into it is to know when to call it a days work. I need to be sensitive to not only “out of breath” moments but also to moments of enough activity for the day. I may have the desire to keep moving and doing not feeling exhausted but I now know I need to accept that it is time to stop. I could do crafts where I am quiet instead of relying on TV watching which is my habit later in the day. I am still learning my limits with disabilities. I have learned to slow way down after a day or so of running. We have three trips coming up in the next three months. I see where I may need to go but I also need to make time to be quiet and still for a day or so during the week week we will be gone. I may need to let Junior go off without me so I can stay healthy. We are both getting used to my needs. I no longer can push myself like I once did. Bronchitis flares so easily these days. I have day to day balance issues which I can work with but if I push too much I will fall hard like I did a couple of years ago and tripped over a crack on the sidewalk and kissed a cement planter. I also don’t handle excessive heat and Junior can tell when I’ve had enough. He will tell me to go inside to the air conditioning. I am grateful that he is so understanding. He has his down time needs as well and this allows me to understand his needs. May God Bless you and keep you make His face shine on you. Love Janet