March 24 2015

March 24 2015 Greetings My Friend As I was starting the process to clean off our wrap around porch I happened across the perfect summer routine in my thoughts. The front porch will be great for morning coffee and quiet time. The back deck will be good for afternoon retreats to breathe, work on some refurbishing old furniture and the like. The sun comes up on the back deck and sets on the front porch. This way I won’t have the sun in my eyes. I have spent a good hour cleaning up the front porch and at the next opportunity I can clean off the porch by the kitchen finishing up with the back deck. I’ve got a plan and I love it. My focus is changing from deep cleaning to sprucing up the outside. I hope to have plants for the porches this summer and I am plotting this piece out. I believe I will be able to do the everyday run through the house each morning and then focus a lot of work time outside such as watering plants, writing or just resting. I was quietly wishing more of the renovation was further along when I realized this coming summer will be the first time I will have clearly defined clean areas that won’t need much building material all over. I am able to decorate, to plant planters and to enjoy the beauty of our neck of the woods. Ever so slowly Junior has worked in the kitchen and there is talk of looking into a contractor for the master bedroom and bathroom. As I mull all of this I see that I have many rooms in the house fairly settled and now I will start settling the porches. Life is sweet and Junior is slow but I am good with it again. I have been asking God to help me as I realized I was getting anxious about having a “finished” home all around. I knew it was my problem and that Junior is doing the best he can. I also appreciate him being patient with my ability to keep our home clean. Some days I need to stop and he never gets upset. I want to be the same way for him. God once more opened my mind and I feel less anxious again. I was also getting lax using my CPAP. I have a tendency to fall asleep in my recliner each night and then I wake up and go to bed. This helps me sleep through the night because some nights it takes me a while to fall asleep. Some nights I might hit the recliner a few times so I was not always putting the CPAP back on each time I went back to bed. Last weekend I had a moment where I woke up startled and unsure what day it was. I realize that I blacked out and at that point I knew that I need to put the CPAP on each time I lay down. I have had a friend or two who state when they lose weight they don’t need their CPAP. I have lost 27 lbs. so I told myself that may be true for me. No my problem is not my weight! Lesson learned. I remember waking up talking to God and He pointed this fact out to me. He showed me that I blacked out again which I haven’t done in a few years. I am grateful He showed me that I need this all the time. May God bless you and keep you make His face shine on you Love Janet