June 14 2014

June 14 2014 Greetings My Friend, I am extra winded today after my walk. Junior found a large rock he wants for our yard so he put it on the seat of my walker and I pushed it back to the house. For the most part I did not notice the extra weight although my breathing got harder and harder. That last hill was about all I could do to get back. I’m down another pound. My hope is that the weight fluctuation is about done with. First I went through menopause and then cancer and the medication I took put me back in menopause. My Chronic Fatigue and health issues kept me from my walks so weight stayed on as well. Being on the other side of all these things I hope to stay a constant weight once more. The good part about putting on so much weight for me was learning that Junior truly found me beautiful no matter my size. I had always thought men only wanted a beauty and when we gained weight they were turned off. That had been my experience. As Junior continued to love me and accept me no matter my size I grew more comfortable in my own body. I still would like to be a healthy weight though. I strive to be healthy and I’ve strived to be healthy my whole life. Entering into old age for me means more of the same. I want to travel, be active for as long as I can. My walks last anywhere from 30 to 50 minutes these days. I love the time spent soaking in the beauty around me. I love snapping pictures of different scenes. I love the dogs getting all excited as I get ready for my daily walk. I can’t make the bed anymore with all of their excitement in following me until I am fully ready. I also think I honor God by being as healthy as I am able to be. By being as healthy as I can my health stays fairly constant to a point. I am showing the signs of a long life and decline at the same time my own Mother at my age could not walk across the room due to a lifetime of smoking. So I do what I can for as long as I can. Our errands yesterday wore on me so today I will not go with Junior to his doctor’s appointment. We did a few things before we went to Lowe’s and at Lowe’s Junior needed to figure out what he needed to install the stove top we have. It took him a long time and at one point I knew I had pushed myself far enough. Daisy and I went back to the truck and waited there for Junior to find what he needed. I find that Sundays tend to be my catch up day. I sleep most Sunday afternoons for an hour or more. Monday I am back to my routines with the work while I can and sit when I can’t way of doing things. While we were at Lowe’s I found an organizer for tin foil, plastic bags and such. That is my goal today is to organize that stuff into a neat fashion. The organizer for the pans is working out well. I am trying to find a way to keep a few of our coffee cups by the coffee pot. Junior isn’t interest in my idea but I am working on it anyway. Part of my gift to God is being organized. This allows me to have time for ministry no matter the shape that ministry takes. Being organized allows me to write, reach out by the internet, a phone call or a trip to town. I tend to be thinking about gifts I give to other people and to God a lot lately. For Junior I tend to make sure the house is in order, food is prepared for when he wants to eat and being available as he takes his breaks. As a friend I try to be available to hang with, to listen or whatever. Some of the gifts Junior gives me are the flowers from the garden at my spot where I eat in the morning. He tells me to go sit when he sees my fatigue on my face and his enjoyment of what do or cook for him. The older I get the more I appreciate these types of gifts over store bought gifts. Not that I am upset when Junior picks up a pair of flip flops from time to time just because. The little I am thinking of you gifts are precious though. Have you thought about the gifts you give to others? Are you trying to buy their affection or do you give because down deep you know you are touching that special spot? May God bless you and keep you make His face shine on you. Love Janet