April 22 2014

April 22 2014

Greetings My Friend,

A Marine Corps buddy has come into town for a visit with Junior and I. The boys took off exploring and I am at home getting things in order and doing my day. The friend looks tired so we are glad he has come.

I had two doctor appointments yesterday. One was a follow up after the scope and the other was to see if I needed to have therapy for a swallowing problem. Both turned out well.

I was wore out when we got home and did next to nothing the rest of the day. Thank goodness for crock pots because food was made and we just heated it up. Our friend showed up late in the evening and we visited with him for a while before we called it a night.

We moved Mindy and her little one to the TV area this morning. They seem to be doing good there so they will stay. Our friend now has a bedroom without little fur children although he tends to sleep in a recliner.

I marvel at what we tend to go through in life and the people we become. Junior and I were raised in major dysfunction as was his friend. Our kids are not impressed with what we have over come and how we have handled our lives. At this point though we know and accept the fact that we did the best we could. We don't seem to need approval from others anymore.

It has been a journey but I have arrived. God is the only way I could handle this crazy journey I've been on. He seems to be proud of me and frankly that is all that matters anymore. I can't make people see what they don't want to see.

There seems to be a point where we stop and look over our lives, the good, the bad and the ugly parts of life. We learn to accept all of it and then we enter into the remaining years we have left. I find that if God is happy with me then I don't need to beat myself up over what was.

Life is short. As a young person it felt like it went on forever but these days I see how short life is. As I see how short it is then I tend to want to make the best of the rest of my life. I can't change the past. I can live in the present and that is what I am choosing to do.

I strive to start over each new day. As I continue to look forward I tend to make changes and like the changes I am making (with God's direction of course.) I am a child of the King plays out in my thoughts again. I find a joy in that thought.

Sometimes I begin to contemplate eternity. It is for ever and ever. A passage reads something to the effect of “no more pain, no more sorrow.” I can't imagine a life that has no ups and downs to the rhythm of life. I tend to relish the thought but I can't imagine what that type of life is like.

Next I can't wrap my thoughts around for ever and ever. Life has always had a beginning, a middle and an end to all of its situations. Having no end tends to baffle me. Having no pain and sorrow tends to seem strange and I wonder over and over what will heaven be like with a quiet measure of day in and day out calm.

Junior and I live that type of life at present. We haven't always lived without drama but we have settled into doing our days one at a time without drama. I love it and I tell him often how much I love this “boring” life. I love the predictable rhythm we have. I love that arguing is not a major constant in our lives.

I love accepting Junior warts and all and I love being loved warts and all. I love asking God to open my eyes to Junior when I come up against something I don't know how to deal with. God has always shown me how to move past that point and back into enjoying Junior for who he is.

We have very few visitors. That's OK. We love where we are, the beautiful views that are our everyday. We love this 90 year old home we have and relish it. We love our animals beyond measure. We attempt to take God out with us as we go around town, on trips and such. At home we strive to draw as close to God as we can and frankly life is sweet.

May God bless you and keep you make His face shine on you.

Love

Janet