April 19 2014

April 19 2014

Greetings My Friend,

The news from the neurologist was good news. She could find nothing to cause alarm with my balance issues. She noticed that I have improved since the last visit. We believe having the house in order more so has helped me to learn to deal with my balance issues. I still need the cane but I am not stumbling near as much.

My doctor loved my comment, “ I believe having the house more in order has allowed me to acclimate to my balance issues.” As I walked across the room without my cane she was impressed. I still walked with a bit of hesitation but I moved about the room fairly well.

At this point the Doctor wants to check on me throughout the year but beyond that we deal with balance issues believing that at present this is the extent of the problems. My Chi aria malformation birth defect is real mild. Life is good.

I mentioned to my Doctor that I thought getting a WII system might help me with my balance issues as well. She agreed so we went off and bought a used WII system. Along with walking I plan on using the WII system.

Today I will hang around the house and clean. I am thinking about making some cheese soup as well. Tomorrow will be a run day with two doctor appointments. One is a follow up from the scope, the other is to check out my swallowing to see if there is a problem there. Slowly but surely we work through each struggle and in due time things tend to settle down.

Next week I have the pulmonary function test and that should be it for a while. The closer I get to this test I truly believe I do have some sort of lung issue. I have been told that I can more than likely walk for a half hour straight without stopping with the aid of inhaler. I am excited to see if this is true. Time will tell.

Grandma was able to walk around town well into her 80's and frankly I hope I can as well. Walking has always settled me and helped me to stay somewhat in shape. I miss my walks. Out here I love the country lane, the hills and the trees. I always find a deep peace as I wander along the road with our dogs in tow.

Most nights anymore I find myself saying “Thank you” to God as I fall asleep. I am so thankful that a life time of stress has left me. I do have my struggles but these days I don't feel so alone and scared. I am content in my own skin and I am not trying to figure out how to “be.”

Junior has encouraged some of my decorating ideas that I have felt unsure of. I wanted a lace valance for the front glass door. The sun comes in and blinds us so I wanted to hang a curtain. We did and we love it. I fretted that it may not look right and did not have enough courage to believe it would look good. He followed through and again we love the look. The lace is sheer enough to show off the pretty glass but heavy enough to keep the sun from blinding us.

Next I wanted to hang shelf liner on the windows in the bathroom and bedroom. I wanted privacy but not the darkness blinds had. Junior hung the bathroom window with the shelf liner and we liked it. We found some lace at a thrift store and glued that on the window underneath the sheers. Yup it looks great. We have privacy and the room isn't as dark.

God continues to grow me. I love it. I continue to gain more confidence in myself. It isn't me doing the work but God. My heart continues to lean on God and as I do I keep meeting a “new me.” It is awesome.

May God bless you and keep you make His face shine on you.

Love Janet.