March 28 2014
Greetings My Friend,
This week has been such a productive
week for me. Monday I reorganized our bathroom. We've been here 3
years now. The bathroom stuff has collected and has not been gone
through. I found mouse, hair clips and even brushes I had forgotten I
even had. It was time to get rid of stuff. I reorganized shelves and
put my favorite new organizational strategy to use.
I love baskets and I have them all over
our home. They hold stuff and keep the clutter down. I did Junior's
TV chair area a few weeks ago and of course there is a basket for him
to throw junk mail or old magazines in. There is a basket he can put
bills in and then take out when he wants to pay bills. I have one
with snacks, the remote control along with Daisy's comb, scissors and
such.
I cleaned off a step ladder that Junior
nailed a board onto the 2nd step and I have found a couple
of baskets to use for drawers on that as well. Even the fur children
have a basket for their toys. I have a basket for shoes as I come
inside from being outside. Well right now it is a cardboard box but I
am on the lookout for the right basket.
Today Junior and I cleaned out the
spare bedroom. It has gotten to be a catch all and it was time to
bring that mess under control. We got half way through the process
and both of us were tired so we should be able to finish up tomorrow.
My trip to the neurologist did not give
answers as of yet. I expected that. They took a different blood panel
in the hopes of finding out what is going on. My friend P mentioned
that I may never get a full answer. This is what she has found. If I
don't my thought is I have done everything I can to be on top of what
is going on. At this point it is not MS. This too is good.
It was a 2 hr. drive to the doctor's
office yesterday. We got there early and had lunch at a nice
restaurant. After that we saw the doctor. I got my blood work done
and it was time to head home. I noticed that Junior had glazed over
eyes. He was starting to speak in one word sentences. He told me he
did not know where he was.
To say I was concerned is putting it
mildly. Junior is a map kind of guy. He loves figuring out how to get
to places and the like. I am still confused when we head out of our
area a few hours. I have been trying to figure out where we are at so
if I need to drive. Junior does not always take the same route which
confuses me further. So he did not know where he was and I did not
know either.
Thank God for friends. I called P and
our Youth Minister asking for directions. They got me on track and I
was able to direct Junior back home. He did not want me to drive and
as I watched him he was handling the driving part fairly well. That
helped me since we got back after dark and I can't even see after
dark.
When we came home Junior went straight
to bed. When I tried to give him his bed time medication he would not
take them. As I went to bed a few hours later I kissed him and asked
him if he would take his medication. This time he said “yes.”
I got up this morning and Junior was
his old self again. Thank the Lord. I had been asking God all along
to help me deal with this strange behavior and frankly I kept getting
answers with each step.
When I got in I called P and she
thought that Junior was over tired or overwhelmed. As I look back at
the last few days I saw that Junior was absorbing some hard
information. Talking about my medical struggles and that they could
be serious was what took him over the edge I believe.
After praying I got up and had a talk
with Junior. I asked him about yesterday and he could recount
everything right up to the visit with the doctor. He was distant as I
went for blood work and then as we left I started seeing his change
in character.
As I related the last part of our day
to Junior he did not remember anything I told him. I mentioned that I
called people who helped me to direct us home. At this point Junior
said this is not the first time he has shut down in this manner.
After his time in the military he bought a motorcycle. When things
were overwhelming he would get on his bike and ride to the point he
ran out of gas. At that point he came out of his fog and had no idea
of where he was.
We have been together 16 years now and
this is the first time I have encountered this behavior pattern.
Junior has for the most part dealt with those moments and has moved
out of them. He did not mention them to me or if he had I did not
understand. Anyway now I will know to get him to get some sleep
before we continue on. I am so happy that Junior still has his right
mind at this point.
Once more I must say that God was what
kept me from being “too”. I would have wanted to take charge and
not let Junior drive. I would have asked him a million questions. I
took over and gave him directions. He listened and he drove quiet
well. I watched him look for on coming traffic when he pulled out
onto the road and such.
When we got to more curvy and hilly
areas he did his shifting back and forth between drive and low. He
did it automatically. As I asked Junior if he wanted me to drive he
kept saying no that he wanted to drive. As I heard about his early
bouts with this I realized that driving is what helped him to focus
and that helped him to calm down.
I believe that P being home to answer
my call was God's hand on us. I believe the Minister answering my
call was God's hand on us. I believe God gave me the whits to take
charge to an extent and to let Junior drive.
I also told Junior that I rose to the
challenge. I wasn't trying to be snippy but Junior worries that if he
weren't around I would not be able to handle life. I told him that I
took charge as I needed to and handled the situation. He felt better
as well.
Today Junior has helped me in the spare
room, worked on renovating things around the house, sorted through
the mail and I have done my jobs as well. Thank you Lord.
May God bless you and keep you make His
face shine on you.
Love
Janet
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