November 21 2013

November 21 2013 Greetings My Friend, I can’t say it long enough, loud enough how much I love the fireplace out in the entry way. Slowly the rooms come back together. Right now Junior is working on putting a plug near the fire place for the little wood burning heater to plug in. I am so happy with that as well. I am anxiously waiting for the propane to be hooked up and for the fireplace be the heat source this winter for the most part. It is pretty watching a fire on and off as the temperature cools enough for it to kick in. The wood burner in the kitchen is also nice and I am grateful for the smell of burning wood. It is a familiar and comfortable smell. The TV room will have the wood burning heater that is electric and a flame on it for in that room. I like that as well and then we have candles set on and around the stove for more ambiances. Winter is coming and I don’t find myself fretting as I have in the past. We are expecting a colder winter due to the warm summer still I am not upset. Slowly Junior is cleaning off the extra stuff from the porch and yard and it looks nicer each day. Again he doesn’t stay messy so I am grateful. He does like some clutter but when life is on even keel he tends to be just a tad messy. I like that. So I continue to wait for the day when order will reign more than disorder. In the meantime I make order where I can and talk to God when I am at my whit’s end. Daisy and Mindy have fully grown into our family. Daisy gives me focus and a friend at times. Yesterday I went to the store and took her in her sling. Many people commented on what a cutie she is. My heart was bursting when the comments came. We let Mindy out into the yard all day with the big kids. She gets them to chase her and even play tug of war with her. Daisy stays by my side and life is sweet. The new goal is for Junior to take her out in the morning and not let her get back in bed with me since she barks at every little thing Junior is doing. Yup I keep falling in love with Junior. It amazes me after 15 years that I continue to have that moment where I fall deeply in love again and again. I also keep thinking that Junior is cuter pretty much daily than the day before. Is he? I am not sure he is a stud muffin by most women’s standards but in my eyes a cuter man was never found. As we walk out onto the porch and I find less out there I find myself pondering furniture for the porch. We have some already but I’d like to also arrange things with that homey looking feel. Arranging furniture and such moves me to no end and I want people to always feel right at home when visiting me. We don’t have many visitors but if any do well it will be there. I stop writing for a bit and look up and around. I love the lace curtains on the windows. There is a sense of quiet comfort even with the curtains. I tend to like an older look of decades ago. Modern furniture style is ok but comfort seems to be in the old fashioned look to me. Out here quilts are cheap. I bought a double bed sized quilt for $15 today at a yard sale. I can see me having quilts for the beds, quilts to pull over me as I watch TV and such. I have found my quilt niche and am anxious to finish one and start others. I am sure as I get better at it I will be making more to give away. We will see. Mindy sweetie…….”just jump up on my lap. Oh you want me to put you up here instead.” Silly girl! These cats and dogs sure do bring a sense of family to my day to day life. They don’t argue or get embarrassed to be seen with me. I love that as well. As a young person I felt that life had to be exciting each and every moment and if it was not then I was not living a good life. These days I find a boring life (in comparison) much nicer to be honest. I am grateful that Junior likes to travel a bit as well. I am as involved in things as I can be and I find that the non-dramatic life is full and rich. My goal these days is to discover my role as a woman the way God created me. I enjoy marriage with Junior as I feel God teaches me to be Junior’s wife. I no longer find it fun to drink, do drugs, share many partners etc. I truly am content with one man. Drama for the sake of drama is now gone. It seems to have grown old real fast to be honest and now living God’s way seems the best to me. Some parts of me is real sad I did not discover my faith journey until later in life. On the other hand I also am able to see that God’s way is really the best way. So I found God late in life. I found Him and that is ok. I am grateful to live many years in this faith journey as well. I am grateful that I was not on my death bed before accepting Jesus as my Savior. Still accepting Jesus anywhere in life’s spectrum is better than never accepting Him. For me though I love watching “me” change and grow and a big part of that is a less self-centered life. I love seeking another’s highest good. May God bless you and keep you make His face shine on you. Love Janet