July 15, 2013

July 15, 2013 Greetings My Friend, I am moving very slow. I can barely walk straight and it appears I either have an ear infection or wax build up. Junior will drive me to the Doctor this afternoon. I could not go outside for my daily walk so I jumped on the elliptical a few times. Good for me….I’ve been cooking fairly steadily again for about a week. That one took me a while to get back into. I still struggle with this older age thing and being the energetic person I once was. Yesterday I even made some muffins…..which was fun and real easy since they were from a mix. I continue to move forward with getting my retirement routines set and in order. So far I’ve moped the bare floors around the area rugs once and now that needs to be part of my weekly routine. So far this week I’ve read my Sunday school lesson and I picked up a devotional from church and I have read today’s reading….I do like reading Scripture from different sources along with a daily reading of the Bible. Junior is working on putting up a roof for our new deck which will help me have less sun in my face, on my computer and such. I have never been a sun worshiper that said I would rather it be sunny outside than cloudy. I just like sitting in the shade as opposed to direct sunlight. My new smart phone has died and I am waiting for a new one to come in the mail. I can’t believe how quickly I’ve gotten used to having FB, internet and e-mails at my disposal. I am on the hyper side so having these distractions keeps me from talking too much want to change what I am doing etc. and Mr. Junior get a break from my constant chatter. I continue to enjoy that settling into retirement feeling. I can’t believe it is taking me a few years to get to the point of being settled. Now that most of my health issues have been dealt with it seems like I am able to settle into routines more easily. Most days I walk outside for about 15minutes to half an hour. If the weather is not great or I am not up to par I will jump on the elliptical. I sleep well most nights and get up maybe once a week which is great from the night to night get up routine I had going. This summer we will have owned this house for three years and we have lived in it now for 2 ½ years. Not a day goes by where I don’t fall in love with our new home, the country lane outside our door and the wonderful mountains and forests around us. I love the laid back pace that is part of this area. I love the people who love me and it feels awesome. I truly thought Junior was going to be working on our kitchen but the deck has taken over his attention. I am now good with his need to switch projects right in the middle of another project. He does finish his projects and when it is done I find he has done a marvelous job. The getting to the done part is still confusing but my insides don’t get all knotted up anymore. I know that I know that Junior will complete what he starts. I love thinking about how much I love this relationship. I probably do a mental comparison each day. I love that we rarely fight. I love that Junior comes to me for input on what he does with the house. I love that Junior likes to tease with me. I am not the brunt of his jokes. We promised each other when we married that we would not use put down humor and for the most part we have not given in to it. In the last few years we seem to adopt pets. I think we’d have a stronger backbone if we knew that the pets would be adopted but no they are put down fairly much right away so we take babies in that we did not intend to adopt so they can live. That said though if the animal is too aggressive we won’t keep it. We have 4 dogs and five cats. The cats love the porch area with no dogs allowed. Junior has made a hole in the wall for them to come and go as they choose. The younger cats even get themselves down off the porch even though it is up high. When we married children were not going to happen. We were getting too old to have children. We did have a niece move in for a year and we treat her like a daughter. Our children are our pets. Junior wants to be the alpha male so it works. I’m not up to training the children anymore so he does it and I follow his lead. It works. Animals love Junior. I could allow myself to get jealous but I don’t. Junior gives me enough attention and frankly I don’t mind picking up where he leaves off in giving our children attention. It works. The porch time with the cats makes it even sweeter because we can be friends without the dogs hogging the attention. In this life I tend to have all the attention I need. Gone are the days of trying to be noticed. I am good at being behind the scenes these days. Again Junior gives me the attention I have so desperately wanted for a lifetime. Junior has let very few people inside of him. His Marine Corp buddies and me and a friend from his high school days and I feel special that Junior has allowed me into that deep core of his being. That is a place not many people have been invited into and it feels awesome. I believe God was the match maker and I marvel at how well we continue to connect. May God bless you and keep you, make His face to shine upon you. Love Janet