July 16, 2011

Greetings My Friend,

King David saw Bathsheba bathing on a roof top. He asked who she was and then had her brought to him. King David loved God and followed God with all his heart. He saw this woman and his fleshly side took over. He slept with her. When she found out she was pregnant, she sent word to King David. Her husband was in the military and away at the time. King David had him sent home. He tried to get him to go to his wife. Uriah felt dis loyal to his comrades so he slept outside the house in front of the door. King David got him drunk in the hopes he would go to his wife. Uriah slept outside again. King David sent him back to the battle, sent a note to have him put up front in the line of fire and Uriah was killed.

After the period of mourning, David married Bathsheba. She gave birth to a son. God sent Nathan the prophet to King David. Nathan gave a word picture to King David about a poor man who had one lamb and it was like his own child. A rich man had company and he took the poor mans lamb and had it for dinner. King David was offeneded and thought the rich man should be punished. Then Nathan said the man is you. You took Uriaha's wife and had him killed.

I am reminded again that God knows EVERYTHING. He sees what is in your thoughts, in your heart. It is hard to be one way with God and when people are around be another. God knows.

Recently I had a thought come to me again. I mentioned it recently in a blog. "God knows what goes on behind closed doors." This thought keeps playing around in my thoughts.

One of my first prayers was "God teach me to be the same at home as I am in public." I found it hard to think dirty thoughts and then pretend I was a nice wholesome person. I found that if I swore like a salior at home and not in public I didn't feel right. God has been teaching me to be the same. If you see me at home now....I'll be pretty much the same as I am in public. Junior and I sometimes have our love talk which we won't share with others, love moments sooo there are some things we don't do publicly. Overall though....I try to be the same.

We heard a speaker one time and he talked about this. He talked about how when everyone went to bed, he sometimes turned on a racy film. Then his son got up one night and he realized that he should not do this at all, ever. That meant no girlie magazines, no internet peeks to porn sites and the like.

How many of us are all nicey nice and then go home and are about as mean as we can be with those we love? How about the things we let our eyes rest on....the chest of women in the store, the bulge in the man place. How about what we let our minds wander to. For years I thought that as long as I didn't really touch another man and dreamed about those touches I was being faithful. Now when I let my mind go there....I give the man Junior's face. I'm faithful to him even in my dream thought life.

When I begin to realize that God is in the bedroom, bathroom....anywhere, I begin to rethink my thoughts. Would I want God to know how I truly feel about someone I am not fond of? At that point now I begin to ask God to show me how to love that person. Actually learning that prayer God gave me has been powerful in my life. We all have people we aren't fond of, don't like etc. I ask God to teach me to love the unlovable. I have learned to have a peace about people. I have learned to truly love people that are annoying to no end. Sometimes we can enter into each other's lives and enjoy each other. Other times I have peace and make amends where I can. If it does not work out...I have peace.

My thought life was making me miserable for years. Now I am at peace more often than not. When I struggle I take my struggle to God and He comforts me and opens my mind to the changes I need to make. When I fall down....I ask for forgiveness and then God helps me move forward. Until I admit I have a problem it is hard to overcome it.

How is your thought life? How is your private Life? Is it time to be the same everywhere?

May God bless you and keep you, make His face to shine upon you.

Love
Janet