July 9, 2018

Greetings My Friend,

For the past month I have had good days, bad days and days trying to get back to my new normal. I keep learning the simple things that I once could do and recover from quickly is not so with Parkinson's. I have dealt with two types of dizziness one was do to the medication that controls my tremors, the other was an ear infection. I knew that a week of going to VBS was going to wear on me, following the two weeks of dizziness did not help, then a week of running to doctor's appointments and such was the final straw. I struggled to get my sleep routine back on track,  Saturday night the dogs got into a huge fight it was between a German Malamute, a Redbone and a boxer plus the smaller dogs and I was the one in the mix of it hitting them with my walking stick trying to break it up. The dog fight had my adrenalin pumping so bad I could not get to sleep that night. I was still awake the next morning to go to Sunday School so off we went, I got sick after class and we went home. By evening I was beginning to feel better, I had a good nights sleep, I woke up at my usual time and I once again feel ready to do my normal routines. I kept asking God if I should write during  those hard weeks, the answer was no. Today He said it is time and as I look back I know why I did not need to write, I simply did not have the energy. Our town has a 3 week revival again this year, I know without a doubt that I can not attend it. My energy is not what it was a year ago, which makes me sad although God continues to teach me how to manage my time. I would rather be able to help clean the house, make meals and put up food. Junior lovingly filled in for me on the days I was out of commission,  he did this on top of continuing to renovate the house, the kitchen at present. He is a marvel, someone I look up to and strive to deal with my disability as aptly as he has his. He has had 40 some more years on me with his disability so I am learning. Junior's foot was blown off in Vietnam which has played havoc with his back. He should be out of commission but with Chiropractic care and supplements, he can still work, slowly but he is on his feet working non the less. From him I have learned to manage my time, learned how important it is to stop for a few hours at a time to rest, then go back to it. I see Junior's reliance on Jesus, how much he able to do so I learn to take my struggle to Jesus as well. By focusing on "me" getting better, I am now able to return to writing. May God bless you and keep you, make His face shine on you. Love Janet