Greetings My Friend,
I would so love to help those caught up in the after effects of the hurricane, I can't due to my disability. I miss going on short term mission trips, volunteering to help out at food pantries, put on Re Married workshops even work with the youth. I could feel of no use at all or learn how I can use what God has given me to help others, I choose the latter. Sometimes I think God is teaching me all about the work that still is available for me to do from the comfort of my home. At times I find out how much I want to be noticed, to get accolades for the work I am doing so God has allowed my health to decline so that I am able to learn the comfort of helping without being noticed. Just as my prayer life in private brings me more in tune with God's love and desire for me, for the world I also learn that God's work for me does not always entail huge amounts of physical energy, sometimes I am able to comfort others at the store, online or even with a phone call. Many times people are watching how Junior and I are interacting as a couple and our comfort with each other is what God is using to bring others to Himself. The older I am getting the more I believe that God is opening up new ways to serve Him without being public such as short term mission trips, leading teenagers or even singing in the choir. It is the time in my life to step aside as a new set of younger people come forward to allow them to begin to learn to serve in the areas I am now leaving behind. God has not forgotten me either, He is shifting things around much like what my job at the bank was doing over and over. Life is not stagnant but it is fluid and changing so my life will continue to be the same fluid and changing. I believe God does not mind me remembering the past things I was involved in, like I love talking to Marilyn about when we used to work with the youth. Those memories sustain me a lot, I am thrilled some of the youth have found me online and are allowing me to watch them with their children. I also need to live in the present, to work with the abilities I have right now too. Junior and I work hard on our marriage we ask God to direct us, to teach us what the other needs, I love my life with Junior, even the crazy parts where he is so different than I am. Prior to Junior I did not believe a man and a woman could enjoy each other the way we do. Today I know without Jesus I make a mess of things trying to love on my terms. It does not work. God is keeping my mind active, teaching me how to work with a broken body all because He is not through with me yet. That makes me feel loved and wanted so I learn to work through the difficulties, accept I can't help those down in Texas and thereabouts and I find myself saying that comfortable refrain,"And that is okay." God is still in charge I am grateful. May God bless you and keep you make His face shine on you. Love Janet
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