Greetings My Friend,
As we chatted about our disease we confirmed that we did not want to live angry and depressed because of Parkinson's. We both have Parkinson's, it is what we have now we feel the need to live life as fully as we can, we want to move out of the down moments as quickly as we can with God's help and go the distance the best we can. This was the lady who I gave my phone number to a friend of hers at the revival. I was surprised when she actually called, we set up a date to meet at her house since she does not drive much anymore. Caroline, invited Junior and I into her home and we began talking PD almost immediately. Her tremors are not real pronounced, she is a bit lopsided due to scoliosis which is common to PD, a fact I was not aware of. Her one foot drops on her making it difficult to get around. Right now Caroline is in physical therapy so she can strengthen muscles, learn to manage better and she shared what she was learning with me. I stand very little just to stand, she encouraged me to stand more because I need to strengthen my back muscles to prolong the effects of scoliosis. I stand in the kitchen when I am cooking or preparing food or when I am cleaning but I struggle to stand to just stand still. We kept going back to attempting to not allowing ourselves to fall into depression and staying there. When I read my devotions the next day I was in Job and for some reason his response to his wife made me realize that accepting my disease is the response I need to have. "But he said unto her, Thou speakest as one of the foolish women speaketh. What? shall we receive good at the hand of God, and she we not receive evil? In all of this did not Job sin with his lips." It is easy to love the gifts I receive from God, Junior, the fur children, children and grandchildren and so much more, so having PD is not a fun thing to live with and deal with so should I be angry? I keep finding good that comes with this disease, I am more creative since I continually need to seek to do old things in a new way, I stay close to God with consistent prayers and He gives me hope to face each day. My disease has days of pain, fatigue beyond belief etc. so talking to God opens my heart to His guidance making my relationship even deeper with Him. God guides me with ways to cope, to trust Him and rely even more on His love. I visited Caroline for 3 hours and thought with all the sitting I thought I would be able to come home, make dinner, go for a walk then have quiet time on the porch. I got dinner in the oven, sat down, nodded off, after dinner, I sat down because going for a walk was going to be difficult for me only to fall asleep again. I need my afternoon nap, regardless of how busy or not busy I am. Since I had missed my afternoon nap though, I found myself going to bed earlier then getting up refreshed the next morning. I was happy to meet face to face with a woman who does not mind talking and feel God led me to her another gift God gave me. I feel strengthened and ready to face the good parts of life along with the not so good parts. May God bless you and keep you, make His face shine on you. Love Janet
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