November 22, 2016

Greetings My Friend, "I am the door. If anyone enters by me, he will be saved and will go in and out and find pasture. The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy. I came that they may have life and have it abundantly." What sticks out to me right now is the last sentence, "I came that they may have life and have it abundantly." I used to think abundance was having lots of things, stuff and maybe a loving family beside me. Today I do not see the abundance of what God gives me in material things. I see abundance in a day filled with work that I love and for me it is caring for Junior. I am so content calling him in to eat, making him good food, taking time to be as healthy as I am able and admiring the work of his hands. I am content watching our home turning into a comfortable place for us and to invite friends in. I am content that I have finally said good bye to the painful life I once lived. Jesus helped me get to this point, a lot of counseling and a little anxiety, antidepressant medication. God said to leave Michigan and bit by bit the life I lived there is truly in my past. I have my little family of fur children that are always happy to see me and are never embarrassed to accept me as their Mom. Life is good. Today abundantly is this quiet unassuming life I am leading. I have an answer to why I stumble over my own feet, why my hands shake when I am not on medication to control the shaking and the heaviness in my chest is asthma. It is distressing that I have these things but at the same time I accept it and enjoy what I am able to do. Sometime soon I may not be able to do for myself at all, I think about it some. I know God is guiding me to do things to keep my body as stable as I am able with medication and exercises. At the end of the day I rely on God for just about everything anymore. I want to think I give God all of me and if I am honest I more than likely have a few strongholds somewhere deep within me. Today though when God tells me He wants another part of me I do not argue with Him like I did for a while. At the end of the day I have learned it is for my good and I will be grateful for giving that part of me to Jesus. I have walked away from a huge amount of pain, I have done things I never thought I could do and now I am living an abundant life, a life I dreamed of for most of my life. I have accepted that I am not the same as most people and I am good with that too. To God I am to die for, a daughter of the King. Junior treats me a lot the same way, I am the wife he longed for who wants to be seen with him and enjoys his humor, to us it living in abundance. Believing God is the Father, Jesus is the Son and because I believe the Holy Spirit speaks to my spirit showing me how to walk into the pasture and rest in the green grass. God is good and I am thankful for this life. May God bless you and keep you make His face shine on you. Love Janet