February 20 2016

February 20 2016 Greetings My Friend Sometimes I meet the romance of God. I remember my first days and months with Him and the deep intimate romance of dancing around and around in a slow motion. Psalm 42 brought the dance back to me as I read, “As a deer pants for flowing streams, so pants my soul for You O God. My soul thirsts for the living God. A little further in the Psalm reads “By day the Lord commands His steadfast love, and at night His song is with me a prayer to the God of my life.” The heat of love and passion now burn within me. In this deep love I find a love so deep and so wide and a strength burns in me. It is God’s strength being infused deep into me and I long to go forth and share this love. I always find the Psalms speaking deep into my own spirit. Sometimes my spirit is dancing with God’s spirit, swirling one way and then the next. It is a carefree dance and a longing at the sametime to never let go and to hang onto this moment. I used to feel this as Junior and I danced the slow songs. Those first slow dances were so hard, I longed so deeply to dance cheek to cheek to hear him whisper soft kindness into my ears. I longed to smile longingly at him and at first it was scary. Was this just a passing moment that will be gone when I opened my eyes? One night as I slept I remember I was dancing with God and He was assuring me that “He would never leave me or forsake me.” I woke with a determination to hang onto to this promise and to go forward reaching, speaking and loving for Him. The same thing started to happen in my slow dances with Junior, I knew he would not leave me, he loved me and I could show Him my love without fear. Junior’s hips were no longer able to sustain dancing and the slow dances were even harder. My body could not hold out either. I was tired sooner. I am glad we had these moments because I still remember them in my dreams. My dances with God had slowed down too. I was growing and loving it but the dances came less often and that was okay. I knew I was where I belonged. I have read this Psalm a number of times. The choir at church has sung it many times and we as a congregation have sung it. The moment I hear the music and begin to sing a deep satisfaction with life fills me. I feel I am singing this song to God and He is hearing my song in my heart right alongside of every worshiper singing it. I am alone with God and at the same time I am with every believer. Today’s Psalm/song seemed to be a renewal of my faith. I heard it in a new way also. I wrote it in my journal and I circled soul. Today I sensed my soul blending into God’s soul and each time after this when soul came I felt two souls flowing into each other. I have not had this poetic music in my heart in a long time. It was familiar, soothing and a huge comfort. I had words earlier with Junior, harsh words flew back and forth and I was at a loss as to what happened. We settled down, talked and allowed ourselves to understand each other’s struggle from our own view. Next I sat down to my Bible study and today’s reading included this beautiful song of the soul. I think God danced with me today teaching me that things will be okay, the clearing that has needed to be done is now over with and we will dance again God and I along with Junior in our dance of love for God and our marriage. May God bless you and keep you make His face shine on you. Love Janet