January 28 2016

January 28 2016 Greetings My Friend I see the vision more fully. One section of the wall still needs to be torn down. Junior has started moving partially finished cabinets over to the window. The new gas stove over there. The microwave has been moved and the rough look is taking shape. Add to the scene is newly fallen snow covering the trees in the woods and on the ground. It a beautiful scene from our kitchen window. Les calls Junior often and the men talk for long periods. Junior has learned the art of puttering around the kitchen cleaning while talking on the phone so the chaos he generally works in is not so cluttered. I am dealing with things being moved around again so finding where the silverware is or some pans is still confusing. The good thing is the confusion is not as drastic as has been. I am dealing with it better. With the cold weather Junior has had to stop to fix a few frozen pipes and then insulate them. This time around I am not frustrated or annoyed. I get the process. Five years into this process I finally understand. It helps that I see the vision and with 3 rooms, the front porch and the back deck under his belt I am excited to see this new creation take shape fully. We have been married 18 years in a few weeks and I see how we are meshing our individual ways of doing things into our relationship. Junior likes to toss his trash as he drives into the back seat or on the floor in the front seat. I was always searching for a way to keep the trash to a minimum. We have had car trash baskets and they did not work. I even devised a way to hang a cloth bag between the seats to toss trash into which kind of worked but not really. One trip we stopped to get fast food to eat. As we pulled the food out of the bag I opened up the bag and placed it on the front seat floor. We threw our wrappings in the bag and any other paper that needed to be discarded. The next time we stop we take the bag and put it in the trash can. In my subtle way I have organized my man and he likes this idea. Junior has taught me not to be so rigid about my routines. He shows me things still can get accomplished even though we got a bit side tracked. I have learned to work when I can and to start over from time to time. Sometimes the unplanned distraction or starting over has taught me a new way to do a job that is better than the way I have always done it. With another room being worked on and seeing an end to it I know an end will come. It may a few years away and I am good with that. The renovating has been helpful to me even if I did not always understand it. I have learned to work differently with my disabilities. If things were done more quickly I don’t think I would not have been able to allow myself to learn new ways to do old things as easily. I started out slowly reentering doing housework again. The more my energy returned I was able to work into doing housework in retirement mode. I no longer needed to hurry through my work which was hard for me to let go of. Slow re-entry to housework has allowed me to see the need to work in a measured way. I found myself relying on God’s guidance which amazes me at how much He understands me so fully. May God bless you and keep you make His face shine on you. Love Janet