October 27 2015

October 27 2015 Greetings My Friend With the propane heaters in place it comes to me to make a mantle over them that will look like a fireplace. Dressing up the plain heater sounds like fun to me. Right now Junior is stacking cinder blocks on the sides of the heater. Once he finds a way to make them stable he will put a piece of tin and then a piece of old wood across the blocks. The mantle will give the room a warm friendly look. With the heaters there is a fire so even that will look nice although it is a uniform line of fire unlike real wood burning. There is something about a fire that can be warm and inviting on a cold winter’s day. As summer’s heat wanes and the cool days of fall appear I find myself thinking of ways to stay warm. All summer my thought was to figure out how to cool off. With my returning energy I brought my craft supplies into the TV room. We have some old crates set upright under the TV. I used the open spaces to put my craft supplies in baskets and now I will be able to craft in the TV room. The TV room is where Junior and I spend most of our time. We don’t usually watch much TV until later in the afternoon and then on into the evening. We tend to move to this room as we want to rest or to have a chat. We haven’t had a kitchen table to use in a few years so we eat in the TV room. As Junior tears down the kitchen/enclosed porch wall opening up the kitchen there will be a wall of windows. These windows are where I want our table to face when we eat, cook and such. There is something mesmerizing about looking out the windows to the woods on our property. I hope to eat our meals at the table again. I keep finding soothing places for us within our home. Both of us have PTSD which means for us we need peaceful settings to stay calm in. Until we moved to VA I have always served meals at the table. I felt the need to come together for a meal without a lot of interruptions. It is a time to focus on the others who are sharing a meal. I am longing to go back to this custom with Junior. Our move to VA seems to fill a need that I had, a need I did not realize I needed. Both Junior and I need peaceful setting to quiet our minds from the troubles of the past. We have 9 acres of land and our nearest neighbor is about ¼ of mile from our home. I remember wondering about all the dogs and cats that found their way to us. As the years go by I sense that God has sent us a fur family to love on. They bring a fullness to our lives and in a way they are the children we will never have together. Junior is a good Dad because he disciplines them. I nurture them and life is sweet with our children. They have a way of helping us to focus on them and less on the hurts of our past. I sense God’s peace as we strive to live with memories that try to plague us. I know now that our call to VA has been a place to heal and to find the work God has for us to do. I write, Junior renovates and often times we are reaching back into our community giving a helping hand to others who are in need. May God bless you and keep you make His face shine on you. Love Janet