May 23 2015

May 23 2015 Greetings My Friend It seems one of my characteristics is to look deeply into “why?” As a child I wanted to be “normal” whatever normal is. After I had my son I began the deeper digging due to his hearing problems, allergies, anger due to hearing and ADHD. My career was a lot of problem solving. As a loan processor I had to make sure I had all the documents in order to set up a loan. As a research analyst I dug into what went wrong a whole lot and resolved the problem. In my own life I have learned how to deal with extremely sensitive skin and allergies. I have spent years digging into my past to understand my dysfunctions. God has walked me through the digging and finding answers opening my eyes at the right times to move me past dysfunction, ailments and such. The last few years my research has been understanding what is wrong with my health on different levels. Chronic Fatigue, digestive upsets that take me so low, COPD and of learning to deal with Chiari Malformation a birth defect I did not know I had until my late 50’s. I am now waiting to have a procedure done to stretch my esophagus which means I am struggling a whole lot with nausea, vomiting and the like. Even in this moment I am striving to learn how to deal with digestive issues that are slowing me way down. Sea bands have slowed the nausea and taking them off long enough to shower will bring on nausea quickly. With the sea bands though I still struggle so I have learned to take Zofran which doesn’t always resolve the problem so I have learned to drink lemon ginger tea and peppermint tea. At first I drank the tea as I felt the nausea appearing. After a while I was not able to move out of nausea easily so now I am drinking it first thing in the morning. I drink more tea throughout the day and I am functioning again. I am starting to think that God has given me this inquisitive nature for a reason. I love writing and part of my writing journey is asking a lot of questions. The more I find myself walking closer to God I sense God is using me to teach others what I find out A friend Junior and I love and interact with is a hoarder with major health issues. She has had to face her dysfunction and we are walking with her as she lets her hoarding lifestyle go. I write about my health struggles and solutions frequently. I have made many friends who too are struggling with health. Many of us seem to look healthy but we are not and sharing my “story” seems to give us a forum to educate and to come together and encourage each other, those who are caring for someone with chronic illness. My days of volunteering are fairly much over with. God is using me in new and different ways and I don’t feel like a burden to others. I have a purpose which gives me the reason to get up and try again. Others share their journey with me and somehow I see God’s awesome hand in all of this. May God bless you and keep you make His face shine on you. Love Janet