April 4 2015

April 4 2015 Greetings My Friend Worship is a word going around my brain so I take time to do a bit of a study on it. I find that part of me knew it was more than worship songs. Was it only once a week? Then I read where the Israelites bowed down and worshiped God right there in the moment. My mind asks so is it important to get down on the ground and prostrate myself? My mind has been going around the block and today’s Youtube study taught me that worship is day to day walking with the Lord. It is allowing the Holy Spirit to convict me about the thoughts I have or some of my not so nice actions. I used to think I would have an out of body experience each time He was directing me. Today I find that the Holy Spirit more often than not is the whisper on my heart. The times I find myself walking away from a desire that is harmful to me. It is the times I start to Agape love instead of only seeking what I want in life. Worshiping God is all of me trying to love God, please God and to do the work God has given to me. Then there is “work” that starts to run through my thoughts. I look back and see where I felt obligated to volunteer for each and every “church related” opportunity that came along. I was a youth advisor, I went on mission trips and any other thing that the church building or community asked for. With my disabilities I have had to view the work I do. I kept finding the more I tried to be active in the church itself the more I could no longer do what I once did. God has allowed me to slow down and in the process I am now writing, putting into words the things I am learning. Both Junior and I seem to have people within the communities we live in cross our path. I see where we come beside them and mentor them, teach them from our lives and walk to walk away from some form of dysfunction in their own lives. The lesson I am learning is God wants me to be still, to wait on Him. As I learn to “listen” I am finding life to move along rather well. I find “ a rest” in what I am doing. Some days I can take a struggle to God and sense His direction. Recently my son sought my advice and the struggle brought a lot of old pain to me. I asked my Christian Facebook community for prayer. Soon after I posted my status I began to get confirmation and encouragement. This is helping me stay strong and give my son what he needs to work through this particular struggle. I learned that worship is also being thankful and praising God. The more I learn to thank God for things the less I feel that I feel I don’t have. Many times I look at nature and I marvel at each tiny detail that God has created. Sometimes I look at our human body and marvel. Take our eyes for example or our digestive system and I am in awe. In the end worship starts in the quiet of my heart and express’ itself in the way I think and do. Music is only a tiny part of worship, Sunday services too. May God bless you and keep you make His face shine on you. Love Janet