November 1 2014

November 1 2014 Greetings My Friend, We haven’t had the run days like we had today and yesterday in some time now. I like that our medical issues are now getting under control and we need to be checked just not as often. My heart is asking God to help me be patient and kind today as I may feel frazzled. I am asking God to help me to have “ears that hear and eyes that see.” As I enter into the business of being busy I tend to go on autopilot more. I tend to be focused on getting the job done and not on being sensitive to needs that may present themselves to me. I am also asking God to continue to teach me to seek Junior’s highest good. That means if he gets turned around with the directions and has a few harsh words that I don’t fuss back in a harsh manner also. I need to keep asking God to guide my words and my thoughts so that the rush of the moment doesn’t override the true need. Now that we’ve settled into a quiet routine at home doing our own work it is easy to feel a bit more stressed as we go from one appointment to the next from one store to the next. We head out comfortable and relaxed but I also understand that traffic may back up making us late or we make a wrong turn and have to retrace our steps and these minor irritations can begin to wear on us. Being teachable is important to me. I love to learn things but I tend to like learning in a study session the most so when life is handing me some difficult moments I need to be open to the lesson that is in that moment also. I am learning when I feel that anxiousness building inside of me to start talking to God. I used to hate taking up God’s time when there are others that have such important struggles to work through. Today though I know that God does want that little insignificant struggle of mine as much as a big struggle I may have. God likes walking me through boredom and my inane chatter when I need to talk for the sake of talking. He doesn’t mind me asking Him to give me patience when I feel irritated. One of my favorite prayer requests is asking God to teach me to love those that I find unlovable. A few times God has opened my heart to a real prickly person. Sometimes I sense God teaching me to let go of a hurt and let Him deal with what was done. Nothing feels better than knowing I’ve been hurt and accepting that hurt. I don’t go back to get hurt again but I can truly let go and let God. In my thoughts though I am not angry and I don’t have a need to get even anymore. When we get home today I will fall into my comfy chair and more than likely take a snooze. I will know I’ve put in a full day. Tomorrow I will wake up knowing that it will be a at home day where I will move more at my pace than being rushed as we go from one appointment to the next. I will clean, exercise and cook. I love that life gives us varying types of days to deal with and I am learning to relish the good moments to accept the hard moments and in the end life is truly awesome because God is always right there taking me by the hand when I need it and watching me toddle off when I am able to go off in His will. May God bless you and keep you make His face shine on you. Love Janet