September 4 2014

September 4 2014 Greetings My Friend, There is that moment in life when you realize you can’t control or make another person do what you feel is right and to be honest it is a freeing moment. As I come to terms that our home will be a work in progress for years and years not a few short months to a couple of years I feel like I have been set free. My desire is to not be controlling but I find there are still moments I want what I want when I want it. Sometimes I think God allows us to deal with chaos until we learn to accept it and move with Him through it. If I had the house I wanted the way I wanted long ago I’d be wanting something else. In the slowness though I have come to a place of acceptance and enjoyment. Once more the kitchen is being worked on very little. Junior worked on shoring up the foundation, that one made sense and then decided we needed a wheelchair ramp and extend our porch in front. He also has been building shelves in one of our sheds to put more stuff. My thought is the porch could have waited another year or so. It did not and today I am so glad that he put up the extension. Every time he veers off course like this I am so frustrated at first and by the end of the project I am so thankful for what he has done. This round of diversions I have not fretted, had discussions in my mind and with God. I just waited, watched and now I am in awe. At one point I wanted to have a showcase home to show off. Today I don’t mind that we have had very few visitors to see what Junior has done. I do take pictures and post them online from time to time but I am finding that we live here day to day and what he does is right and good for us. With the porch extension I noticed that I could see the roof line more in my chair so I asked Junior to move the humming bird feeder. He did and now I finally can watch those beautiful little birds fly by for a drink and from time to time see a few at a time. Each time I see these birds a quiet peace seeps within me. Working on the porch has allowed me to step outside and watch Junior on occasion also. When he works around the property it is hard for me to stop and visit him due to the terrain being hilly, cluttered with renovating supplies like lumber and the like. With my balance issues it is hard for me to navigate so I have not had much opportunity to sit by his side. With the porch I wander out and sit. Sometimes he stops and we talk. Sometimes I marvel at the awesomeness of his project and he beams. As he has cleared the porch off of major clutter I am more tempted to sit outside longer also. I do not handle major clutter well, it confuses me. With less clutter I am able to move about easier and sometimes now I go out on my own for a quiet minute. Life is so much sweeter again. It has been a long journey to this day but I have overcome one more obstacle. I have not commented to Junior in a long while about my idea of how to get things done but now I don’t hold it in my heart either. At this point I also do the turn around and look to where I was and to where I am now. Amazing and then I realize God will keep working in me for the rest of my life and at this point I am thankful He cares enough to insist I learn each lesson He gives me. I love this home, what Junior has created and now I get to keep it clean and comfortable for when Junior finishes his day’s work….not bad at all. May God bless you and keep you make His face shine on you. Love Janet