July 24 2014

July 24 2014 Greetings My Friend, I’ve done my new program of writing out a Bible study journal now for several days. I am enjoying the process. Today we will go to town so I will find a notebook and paper to set the journal up more permanently. Right now I am doing it in a spiral notebook. I want to be able to insert pictures, maps and the like so I’d like a notebook. I wrote on Facebook today about being thankful I finally understand Junior’s work style. As I looked at his style I realized that I have entered into his way of working. His back tends to force him to work on different projects as his back is able. For me I’ve learned to work when I can and sit when I can’t. A lot of writing gets done while I sit and then I go back to my work project I started when I can. At the end of the day I find I’ve done quite a few things and that sense of accomplishment is there. As a working wife, mother I found that blocking time out to do things worked best. For me it has been hard to change my thinking as I retired. I wanted to get up, get things done and then have the rest of the day to do fun things. It made sense in my mind. The less energy I had the more I found that a little here and a little there and eventually the work gets done. I have incorporated this habit into day to day life now. I am worker by nature and so being busy moves me. Sitting in my mind is being lazy. As I thought about this I realized I had a desk job and sat quite a bit at work. I did 8hrs. worth the work each day and I was wore out many days after a day of work. I then came home and made dinner, cleaned and the like. I ran children to various activities and at times I even attempted to go to college. That energetic woman is no longer in me. I wanted it to stay and it has not. I liked my busy life but as I got older I just could not do it. My days are full and even busy these days. I have accepted my limitations and learned how to work within them. Junior’s work style was chaotic to me. He’d leave ladders, tools and other assorted building things in a room. Many times I was walking over items. As my balance issues grew worse he had to leave me open areas so I would not trip. That helped me a lot to not get confused and frustrated. Four years into this process we have moved toward each other more. I have rooms that are mostly finished these days and I keep order in these areas. Order helps me to think and I find that I now am doing what Junior does. I do housework until I get winded and then I sit. While I sit I tend to write, research and Facebook. I also pray, read my Bible. Sometimes I make phone calls to a friend in need or just for fun. Staying home every day was hard for me as well at first. Now I can stay home for several days. Both Junior and I tend to have a need to get out of the house once or twice during the week and of course on Sunday. It is the right amount of running. We grocery shop, pick up things from the store, go to the Chiropractor, doctors and the like. It works out rather nicely. Last fall we went to Colorado. In April we were in MI and now we will head to the other side of the state to watch our granddaughter play softball. I love these little vacation moments as well. They refresh us. When we settle back into day to day life I find contentment. Life is good. God is great and He has brought me to this moment of contentment. May God bless you and keep you make His face shine on you. Love Janet