June 5 2014

Junes 5 2014 Greetings My Friend, I can feel all those little circuits connecting inside my brain. I’ve been hard at work all morning learning Google Chrome. My computer has some issues and this is a back up computer we have. It insisted I sign into Google Chrome and now I am learning new things. Not all bad really but I do feel a bit over challenged at present. This laptop is smaller than the other one I was using which is easier to move back to the spot I keep near my chair. I even like the feel of the keyboard a bunch too. I may ask Junior if I can make this my main computer and use the other one as a back up when things go astray. My write program I am on right now is somehow connected to the Google Chrome which means that I can send my things to the internet where I want it to go I think? Prior to this I would write my blogs in a word program and then copy and paste into the blog. If this works I may even start writing my Letters From Janet Facebook page on here and then I can have it go into my comments when I am ready for the next status update. I’m not sure but as I said I am learning and those little wires are moving a mile a minute. It is a rainy day so my elliptical was my exercise this morning. I did 20 minutes and was a bit winded even though I used the inhaler. It is what it is. After I settled down I attacked a shelf in the dining room to add a rack which will hold baking pans. I had a 2nd rack that I wanted to hold lids to the pans in but that isn’t working out so the rack will find another use I am sure. I am moving back and forth between the computer and housework. I was hoping to clean up the yard some more today but that will have to wait until it is dry once more. The deck is taking shape again. Junior is clearing out the things he stored there during the winter so I can use it once more. He is setting up a spot for me to paint some pieces of furniture I’ve been wanting to get to. I am excited about this new addition to my routines. I cleaned out the inside of the car last week which felt nice. This is something I had done for years and after retirement it became too hard for me to do. With more oxygen in my lungs my energy level is better. I still manage to crash on the weekends but these days that feels good since I’ve accomplished things during the week. Picking up the trash in the yard was a challenge yesterday but I was working out a system. These days I need a cane or something to keep me balanced. I got out my walker with the seat and used that. When I was tired out I rested in the seat. It was near as I needed something to balance on. I am learning to live within my limitations. The string on the light for the ceiling fan came off and I am too short to reach it without a stool. Balancing on a stool is hard. I grab the vacuum cleaner pull it beside the stool and I hold the handle while I pull the string for the light. It works. At one point in my life this lack would have depressed me to no end. Today with God’s love on me I tend to find ways to keep going and I am happy. The best lesson for me is” learning to do when I can and sit when I can’t” Since discovering my ADHD tendencies I am retraining myself to jump from task to task like I did when I could run from project to project. The computer is my friend because I can jump to different sites as I need to. Add “work a little and sit a little” to this and my overactive mind keeps busy. The chalkboard is helping me as well. I use this to make a list of things I want to get accomplished. I erase each item as it is completed and I have that sense of accomplishment I need. I also put up a list of things I’d like Junior to accomplish, call the doctor, the investment counselor and such. I don’t keep saying it outloud and he knows what needs to be done. He doesn’t get so irritated at my repeating myself as a reminder. All through this process I kept asking God to point me in the right direction. At times I needed to figure out how to day to day stuff and God gave me ideas. I have always asked God to teach me to be what Junior needs and God comes through time after time. Sometimes I misplace things and as I ask God I tend to find what I am looking for. Sometimes it will be a few days but I usually find what I need to find. God has also taught me to cherish what is in my life and to quit mourning what is not. It has been a long process but these days all I can do is be thankful for all that I truly have. In 60 years I must admit this point in my life I feel the most content. God has taught me to give all of me to Him and the more I do the more settled I feel on the inside. May God bless you and keep you make His face shine on you. Love Janet