December 5 2013

December 5 2013
Greetings My Friend,
My goal this winter is to focus on the things I like and not on the cold and the snow. So far
I am doing ok. I like to focus on the fire place, the smell of wood burning. I love the two new
fur babies cuddling with me in my chair as I sit and write. I love a warm blanket over me and I
love hearing the tools making a noise while Junior renovates.
Sometimes Junior is on the phone with a buddy and they chat for a while. I love listening to Junior
talking in a back and forth kind of way. Sometimes he giggles and that is precious to me. I also
love phone chats during the day for me as well.
This year I have a sunlight lamp going so I hope to not get the SAD sluggish feeling this year. I
have picked up my crocheting dish cloths again. I am surprised at how hard it is for me to do much
more than a row or two before I have to put it down. I have told myself that this is like the other
areas of my older years and I do it, put it down and then go back to it. My conentration level has
gone way down compared to my younger days. These days I am not angry, alarmed over this lack.
I also am walking on the excercise machine more. I like that a lot. I tend to walk, sit and watch
TV news and then the next commercial I do it again. I am up to 3 5 minutes of walking times so I
continue to expand on that.
For the first part of the morning I tend to wake up on FB, check out my stats in regards to my blog
and read my Bible. I will write a blog and then I get up and make lunch, sweep the floor plus another
chore or two before settling down with my lunch and the news and my excercise.
I love this routine way of life. For me it gives definitation to my day. Once or twice a week we run
around town on errands to the Chiropractor and such. I love those days as well. They break up the
routine and I get to mingle with people a bit. I like that.
Once a week I go off and help out at church. Again I like that routine feeling. Each day has its own
agenda and it falls into a rythmic pattern for my life. I do life in the rythmic patterns well. They
tend to give my day defination and purpose.
The days of confusion and fogginess are fairly much gone. I also know that the run days tend to tire
me out so I fully expect to sit more and nap more the days after the run days. It is what I need to do
in order to function and my little "pep" talks are fairly much gone.
As I sit and contemplate, fall to sleep at night in prayer I find myself once more amazed at God and the
way life is settling out to be. From the start of this relationship I find God's patience with me. I find
His love as well. God figured out way before I did that coming at me in a strong way would make me dig
my heels in and not do what I am being strong armed into. I tend to show the people who want to be
over me that I will not be strong armed even if it hurts me.
God has always been so tender with me and in that tenderness I have grown. It is what I need. It is the
way I am made. Junior is tender with me. Sometimes he is more direct than I need. I tell him to stop and
he does and at that point I make the changes I need to make.
God told us to move. We listened and there isn't a day that I don't marvel. Both Junior and I are the type
that preferr to live in a wooded area as opposed to a beach front. We love the woods, the wild animals
that cross our yard and the like.
We also love the quietness of the country life as opposed to the hustle and bustle of the city life. He works
on the house. I work on writing, cleaning, cooking and loving on the fur children. Life is sweet and simple. I
have needed the simple life for a long time and now I am living it.
I marvel at the house we have. It is about 90 years old. Both Junior and I love the old time stuff. I like the
old style of furniture. To me it is a throw back to the past and simpler times. Life in those days had their
challanges for sure but the simple things were more prevlant.
I am not a woman from that era though. I pull the covers over the pillows. I don't tuck the blankets in and I
don't throw a lot of pillows on the bed. My house is not fussy clean. It is neat but not so clean that each
thing is in its place and a place for everything exsits. There may be a bit of clutter from time to time. Most
days I would be good if someone dropped by for a visit.
I marvel even at Junior and I. I remember praying when I went off to marry Junior after knowing him for such a
short time. I did not want to enter into the upheavel I knew in my first marriage. I remember God telling me
to "go and not look back." I did and I must say I have never felt so in tuned to another person in my life. I
love it.
Daisy and Mindy have been the last piece that has entered my life. They are my children even if they have fur.
Daisy is always so excited when we come back from not having her with us. She sneaks out to the car and jumps
in. Lately we let her do this and then Junior takes her back in if she can't go with us. If she does go with
us she sits in my lap. At the store I place her in the buggy on the seat. She sits there so nicely. I love it.
As people fuss over Daisy I find myself all proud that my child is bringing others joy. As I am silly with the
retail people I find myself happy that I was able to bring a moment of joy into their work day. I love walking
around the store sometimes with Junior and sometimes I go off on my own. If we lose each other we tend to head
back to the car. Sometimes I call him on his phone or he calls me on mine and we then hook up. It works out real
nice.
I am thankful for all the marriage seminars and relationship classes Junior and I took when we first married. I
am able to understand the strange person I am married to easier and I don't get as irritated at him. I know that
he wears blue glasses and hearing aids and I wear pink glasses and hearing aids (not really) and I learn to
understand we are made differently.
I marvel at how much I love life these days. The days of dark depression are over with. God has held me close as
I have worked through each struggle I have had the past many years. As each struggle fell into place with the
right kind of help I have been able to over come my struggle. It is has taken time but in the end I am once
more the happy go lucky girl I have been in the past.
I hear the belt sander going over the wood shelf unit Junior has made for the kitchen. My man is doing what he
loves a lot. He loves to work and renovating has become his "job." As the end comes near I see that he seems
ready to slow down. I think it would be great fun to pick up used furniture and to work on it and make it
"new" again. I think it would be fun to sell these at yard sales. I hope we can see this endeavor begin in
the next while.
Our retirement years are settling nicely. I love the slower pace.I have done a lot of work these past
few years. God has guided me, held me and in the end I am where God wants me to be and I want to be
where God wants me.
Do you give God your life and allow Him to lead, guide and direct it?
May God bless you and keep you make His face to shine on you.
Love
Janet