September 12, 2012 Greetings My Friend, The house has order again and that feels wonderful. Junior is working at putting a new kitchen door in and it is taking him a long time to get it in. I marvel at my man. He doesn’t know what he is doing but he keeps working at it till it is done right and well. He will tear things out several times if need be until it is the way it should be. His back has been hurting big time from working on the carport roof. It has gotten too hot for him to be up there and sometimes he will work early in the morning or later in the evening when the temperatures have cooled down. He is short with me at times. He is still fairly easy to deal with and I appreciate that. For most of my life the men in my life have had bad tempers and anger is aroused as they cuss at whatever they are working on. Sometimes they start banging on things and of course the swearing seems to get stronger the more frustrated they become. There may have been moments if I was in the way I’d get slugged. That was how men worked in my life. Junior may get short. He may say a bad word or two. He never ever has tried to hit me. For the most part I know when to walk away and Junior prefers me to walk away. Once in a while we may exchange a sarcastic comment or two. I have learned to walk away and leave him alone. I even know to leave Junior alone as he works in general. His brain is trying to figure out the next step and my conversations tend to distract him from his thinking. As I sit in my comfy chair Junior will take breaks in his chair next to me. That is the time I need to connect with my man. I have learned to talk at that point. Sometimes I mention that I would like to take a walk and Junior will stop and take a walk with me when he finishes something he is working on. During our walk Junior will tell me about his project that he is working on. Sometimes we walk along in quietness. I will tell Junior the things I need to tell him at this time as well. I have learned to give the information when he is ready to hear it. Being married to Junior has been the biggest blessing. We are so compatible. It feels good. I understand when he is struggling. I have learned to be quiet and I know that we will be friends real quick. I appreciate not walking on egg shells all the time. I trust that Junior will not stay angry for long as well. I know somewhere deep inside of me that he loves me like he has never loved a woman before me. I am his special lady and that feels real nice. Being a loved wife feels wonderful. He sees that I have intelligence. Many times he lets me take the lead in an area of our life. That feels nice too. Junior is not afraid that I may know things he doesn’t. In fact he tends to appreciate it. I fill in the gaps of his knowledge and together we form a great team. Being a loved wife is about the most wonderful feeling in the world. Junior shows his love to me in many ways. Mostly I find Junior’s love as we go to sleep. He often talks in his sleep and tells me how much he loves me. He also reaches for me in his sleep and I love that as well. During the day Junior lets me give him love the way I give love. For me that is making him meals. I also am trying to keep the house picked up and he feels my love. We are friends and I love that beyond measure. As I have struggled with health issues Junior has made it clear he is going to be with me. That is a wonderful feeling. I don’t have to go through these trials on my own. I can be honest with my fears and he comforts me. Junior even gives his thoughts as I talk to the doctors. He listens to the doctor as well. I find that many times the second set of ears helps in doing what I am told to do. With all the new information it is easy to forget a step. With two of us hearing it helps me keep track of what I need to do. Junior is truly my best friend and that feels wonderful. I feel safe with Junior. I can be scared, excited or whatever and Junior accepts my feelings. Sometimes I learn from Junior as well. I learn how to handle my struggles because he listens and accepts my comments and then he helps me work out the situation. Prior to Junior I did not believe that a man and woman could truly be each other’s best friend. He is my best friend. I feel safe with Junior. I feel I can be myself with this man. He makes me feel beautiful all the time as well. I marvel when he is infatuated with my toes or nose or whatever. He truly thinks I am beautiful and it feels wonderful. I have learned that men do indeed get caught up with looks. Junior told me one time though that because of how I make him feel, he doesn’t want to be with the most beautiful woman. They can’t love him the way I love him and he doesn’t want to lose what I give him. I am more important than a quick romance. That feels wonderful as well. Knowing how important I am to him means the world to me. It makes me want to be true to him. May God bless you and keep you, make His face to shine upon you. Love Janet