May 8, 2018

Greetings My Friend,

I have been excited to talk about a trip to Greenville TN Junior and I took, a day trip that excited us. Of course the trip wore us both out, so writing was a bit difficult. Then Sunday night, our precious Daisy died suddenly and our world had been turned upside down. The only other sudden death I have personally experienced was my nephew who was 12 years old at the time 27 years ago. That took us all by surprise. He went away on a science weekend trip with his class and never came home. Daisy, was lovey when we took her to Bible study Sunday night, when we got home she sounded congested each time I carried her anywhere she struggled to breathe. She was in her special spot at the foot of my feet when she   had a spasm so I went to get Junior. She was dying, had foam coming out of her mouth, blood too and stuff coming out of her nose. Junior's grief was so hard that I was finding myself worrying about him, not allowing myself to feel. I thank God for Debbie and Boogie because I called them fairly late in the evening. Both women talked with me until I started to feel my own grief. Their tender words, loving hearts were right there with Junior and I feeling our grief. Daisy had been over to their house with us the night before. She nudged Debbie several times to pet on her, she got down and played with Maddy a few times and Boogie has always treated Daisy as if she was her grandchild. It took me hours to fall asleep Sunday night, I woke up early on Monday and the day was black in my heart. There was no little body to pick up and move when I had to go to the bathroom, to be in my arms helping me walk straight and no little tongue licking off my lotion. Daisy was with me just about 24/7 for the last almost 4 years and I had not realized how close I had grown to this little fur baby. Junior loved her as much as I did, he watched Daisy bring me back to life, to an energy level that has allowed me to function, to clean the house, make us meals. I knew on my 60th birthday I needed something to get me outside of my struggle to come back, it was a gift from God that a lady from church had a little bundle of love to give me. In recent months I started to take Daisy with me just about everywhere, I used her for an emotional and physical therapy dog. When we were out people were drawn to her, stopped to pet her. At church, Daisy would allow me to use her to comfort people. I would put her in someone's arms and she snuggled them until they were content, then I saw her little head peeking around to find me so she could come back into my arms again. She loved wandering down the pew in search of Christy, allowing Terrie to steal her from me for some snuggling. We were becoming a ministry team and then she is gone, just like that. God showed me all kinds of love from Debbie and Boogie, Terrie, our church family and of course our Facebook family. I know that the pain will lesson with time, we will have a little wake for Daisy this weekend given to us by our little Clintwood family Debbie and Boogie, Terri. We will remember her antics, her love and Junior and I will cry and laugh safely in the arms of our beloved little family. May God bless you and keep you make His face shine on you. Love Janet