May 24, 2018

Greetings My Friend,

Today was a definite Parkinson's day for me, then add to that I found myself grappling with some major emotional upheavals. For what ever reason today was a sleepy kind of day for me, as I wake up it is 6:00 in the evening. Junior took Ziva our min pin to get a hysterectomy this morning before I woke up, I was woke up with a call from the Vet's office asking if I still wanted to have the procedure done because she was in heat. I was told she would still appeal to male dogs for awhile longer and if they mounted her Ziva's insides would be injured. After thinking on this a bit I chose to go ahead with the procedure. The Vet's office said it is done frequently, the smaller dogs like she is usually go through this with no problems other than we need to make male dog's stay away from her, since we have 3 males that are still intact although a lot larger I feel they would not be able to harm Ziva. After that I went to my quiet time with the LORD. This time allowed me to focus on God, to settle my thoughts and to begin to prepare for today's agenda. When I finished my quiet time I did some dusting, picked up the kitchen when I realized I needed to lay down so I would be energetic enough to run to the Vet with Junior. Brenda called me telling me about the terrible struggle she is having using the bathroom since radiation but now it has been days since she could go to the bathroom. Throughout the process of her cancer treatments, I kept telling Brenda she needed to talk to her family doctor and quit asking the cancer doctor's for guidance with her health issues. She has been out of treatments for several months and today Brenda decided to call her family doctor. The doctor wanted Brenda to go to the ER immediately, first thing Brenda did was call me to tell me what the doctor told her to do. While telling me what the doctor told her what to do, Brenda was trying to make 4 or 5 other decisions about her impending move, if she should do this or that. I started fussing at Brenda telling her to focus on one problem at a time, she needed to hang up, get to the hospital right now. After each of these major decisions I will get a text stating I am her only friend, she relies on me, then I point her back to Jesus. I have not heard from Brenda as of yet, my guess is she may be admitted. In the mix of these things my niece Alicia's dog died, Molly has been in her life for 9 years or so now. Since Daisy died a few weeks ago I know the difficulty of loosing a beloved pet, it is much like loosing a family member. My heart is breaking for my niece and her family. For whatever reason today I have struggled with extreme exhaustion. I wound up sleeping all afternoon, now I need to see if I can sum up enough energy to be physically active for a couple of hours so I can get to sleep tonight. God will help me to decide what activities I can do so I can sleep. At the end of the day my heart is grateful to be a follower of Jesus, in my brokenness God quiets the hurt in my soul for Brenda, my niece even little Ziva. I am grateful Junior understands my need to slow down some days, he is patient until I am able to get back to functioning again. Parkinson's has taught me only too well, work when I can and sit when I can't. May God bless you and keep you make His face shine on you. Love Janet