March 31 2016

March 31 2016 Greetings My Friend Close friendship is very important to me. Generally when I become a friend to someone I enter into a “I will be your friend through thick and thin.” I am not a giver of presents but I will give of myself fully and that is my gift. I give this depth of friendship to Junior and more so. It is what I crave so I give what I crave. Debbie and Boogie are becoming that kind of friends with Junior and I. We have been trying to get together for sometime now and even have scheduled a visit a few times but our health, gets in the way from hooking up as much as we would like. When we do it is a wonderful time. We share, we laugh and we love as a group of good friends. Last week we set up for a visit to our house to see the kitchen with the table cleared off, the 1st time in 5-6 years. Junior and I spent every free minute we could for the last week putting order to the kitchen to show off where we are in the renovating right now. The ladders are gone, the pile of tools are put away and the table is in its permanent spot. The kitchen still has much work to be done but now I have a work area, cabinets without doors or sides, they look like tables and the floor needs to be done along with the sink area reworked. I can function so much easier in this kitchen than what I have been working with. We each had a view of the side yard and woods to gaze out on and with that calming scene we entered into many conversations. My spirit is awakening more fully and I am starting to discern other people’s heart more so. There people who seem nice to talk to but today I am seeing that the heart is not sincere as it is pretending to be. I don’t see it right away or all the time. I am learning. Recently I experienced a situation where I requested prayers for my emotional roller coaster of feeling I have been going through. I thought the people I requested prayer from were interested in my well being in my Christian walk. The answers indicated they thought my problems were minimal and told me I was on the internet too much looking up reasons for my disorders to be affecting me. I asked for strength and I heard, I will pray for complete healing in a tone that was dismissing my fears. I was crushed. Debbie and Boogie counseled me as how to proceed. I knew their answers were good ways to handle my hurt and I appreciated their Godly wisdom. Up to this point I had talked with Junior only about how I felt. He was good with his comments showing me that there were only 2 in the group who dismissed me and had me focused on the others who let me know my fears were real. They came to me later and said they would be in prayer for me. One told me she too searches the internet for answers to health problems. In those comments I met sincere hearts. Just because I am involved in a church I often encounter people of the world as well. I sometimes am too much of the world. I still think aligning myself with a church body is important. It is in the church I grow in my faith walk. I learn that just as in the world there are all kinds of people I learn in the church how to handle all kinds of people. I sought counsel and found a way to handle my problem. I know more fully who are my true friends now and with this enlightenment I can enter the week better equipped to see into a heart and to respond more effectively. May God bless you and keep you make His face shine on you. Love Janet