June 18 2015

June 18 2015 Greetings My Friend It is amazing how cool and how fresh the air smells after a rain. Along with a renewed desire to enter into the day I sometimes find a need to sleep a bit more. I remember getting upset thinking I was missing so much by sleeping. Lately I see that I have extended myself a bit too much and need time to get back to my usual energy level. Right now I am waking up from an extra long morning of napping. I got up at my usual time, ate breakfast and then I felt so tired. I went to prayer which lulled me into a deep sleep. As I wake up I have a sense of renewed energy, a comfort in my soul and now I am really ready to enter into this day. I have committed again this morning to give my life over and ask God to lead, guide and direct each step. My struggle is wanting what I desire so deeply in my heart. Knowing that God wants my best teaches me to be patient to wait and to ask for His will not my will. It is a commitment I enter into on and off as the desire speaks to my heart. The more I ask for God’s will the less my will rules over me. I know that God will give me and the others involved in my request the best for all of us. That thought helps me to ask again “Your will Lord.” It is a challenge to stay focused but the more I am able to give it back to God one more time the more peace I have and in that somewhere deep I know I will be good with God’s answer. Now that I have asked for God’s will a few times I am ready to leave the request alone and enter into my routines of cleaning and being Junior’s wife. I will sweep the floors, make the bed, make lunch and sit on the porch. I will snuggle with Daisy and love the other fur children as they walk by me, watching out for me. Yesterday I took the trash to the curb, which is a bit of a challenge. Val followed me watching out for me. He knows I stumble so he was letting me know he was beside me watching out for me. Bella will find my lap and snuggle. Each child fills a special spot in my heart. About now I understand that God is hugging me and loving me through these babies. Junior will notice some work I have been struggling with and I sense his pride in seeing me keep at it. My contentment sustains me and I enjoy the work of this day. I work on the freezer again trying to get it just right. I rework the vegetables and give the 2 bins on the shelves and find a home for my cherry pit neck pillow. I freeze it and it fits my neck and head when I need the ice on these areas. As I clean out the freezer I see we have several ice packs and my plan to keep ice for when the power goes out has been in place and I wasn’t aware of it. For now I sit a bit and write, take a snooze if needed and then the next goal is to work on the refrigerator getting that cleaned and reorganized again. The work keeps my mind from asking God over and over for the desire and His will. Business allows me to move into my day and accomplish tasks which makes me feel productive and useful. The true desire in my heart is “Trust and obey” so I am thankful to be about this days work. May God bless you and keep you make His face shine on you. Love Janet