September 20 2014

September 20 2014 Greetings My Friend, I love meeting the “old” me again. I am a slower version of the “old” me but I am meeting myself and loving the cleaning in my path that I am undertaking and making our house look so much nicer. I have avoided the kitchen other than to throw a meal together for the longest time. Junior is once more not working in the kitchen and I am growing weary of the dirt build up on the cupboards and refrigerator. I cleaned those and the kitchen door today. It isn’t a shiny like if I had good paint on the wood but it is clean of fingerprints and it feels good to see the dirt gone. I had been telling myself when he finishes the kitchen I would go back to a more finished look but for now….. I am finding that waiting for the finished product may take a lot longer to arrive and I couldn’t stand the smudges anymore so I cleaned them today. As Junior leaves the kitchen alone for a while I may even organize it more so. It is hard to want to do a lot of cooking with stuff all around the place. Many times I start to organize things and about that time the things get moved so he can work in that area of the kitchen so I had gotten to closing my eyes to the chaos. I am keeping up with many of the other tasks I’ve undertaken this past year and I am staying on top of it all. I even have a day or so where I am not doing well and as soon as I recover enough I am back to picking up and keeping the house the way I like it. This week I’ve added another five minutes to the elliptical as well and yup that too feels good. It has been hard reaching this state of ability again. Now when I am sick and can’t move much I tend to bounce back into my routines rather quickly. I have a pot of soup in the crock pot for tomorrow and the next few days. I am grateful Junior doesn’t mind me not making a meal 3 times a day. He doesn’t mind eating soup for a few days and then my next crockpot of whatever. It works out. I do like to cook but I don’t care to do it full time. This works and we are eating wholesome food. I have felt God’s hand on me and with each round of sickness I have learned to get back to my old routines as soon as I am able. I believe taking on walking, exercising has helped me to be able to bounce back better after an illness. I still come down with things often but the bounce back part is real nice. I think of “you sow what you reap.” As my health failed it got real easy to just sit or sleep. It was hard getting back to the doing part of life. At first I chose to try to walk each day and I found myself not bouncing back. When my doctor and I figured out my sleep problems I began to have the ability to do more. My sleep will always be chaotic but I am able to get my sleep in more nights than not these days. As I could I began walking again. With each setback I would start from the beginning once more. These days the starting over is quicker and I am back to where I was before I got sick sooner. Junior and I are striving to eat fresh food instead of processed food more often also. I think this is helping me/us to stay healthier better. I had been cooking with fresh food for a long time before I got sick and as I got sicker it was quicker and easier to make processed. I have stopped that practice and I think this helps me to mend better as well. Added to all of this I have felt God’s prompting me to challenge myself as well. I like seeing where I was, where I am now. It is encouraging to keep on striving to do all I can no matter where my health is. That may mean learn to sit and heal and then get out and about again. May God bless you and keep you make His face shine on you. Love Janet